Everything is like a mist...

Relocated to Bedok 85

2011-02-25T01:24:00.003+08:00

Time flies.. and just an update of my whereabouts! In fact for the past 3 weeks, I have been "training" under the Hougang branch for carrot cake. Right now i'm sort of like relocated to the main branch in Bedok 85 training for fried oyster and oyster omelette. My dad sort of thinks that it's easier to train in bedok for all food types, and i agree with him.. :) The people there are very friendly and cute.. haha..

As usual, not only does splattering of hot oil onto fingers or skin very common, my whole body is filled with "fried oyster smell" + a layer of oil coating on my body. I can't really smell myself, it's my dad who smelled me. Well, i guess this is how he used to smell when he first started this business.. kinda like a fatherly smell to me already.. haha..

Oh! And we went to the bank today.. as you know, hawker business have lots of $2 notes ( because that's the price of our food ), we went to bank with most of our $2 notes and we were like.. err.. stacking in front of the counter.. i guess we have attracted a lot of attention.. haha.. and the counting and sorting into plastic notes and paper notes took an hour already.. I guess it's another experience that only those doing business get to experience~!

Hmm.. the only thing i'm worried is spending time with my loved ones.. I really hope this job will not affect my relationship.. Time is so different now and i only hope that everything will turn out fine till i master everything..

First post of New Year 2011

2011-02-22T01:43:00.004+08:00

Wow wow wow.. it has been a very very long time since i last blogged. A lot of things has happened and I'm so glad that everything goes well with me.. Praise the Lord..

Before I begin, happy 2011 to all of you! In case you don't know, I have been working in A Star ever since I graduated in June 2009. I enjoyed lab life a lot.. in fact my relationship with everyone, including with my gf, grew exponentially during these period. I love my boss Katja and my best friend Ying Xiu in lab. I love the working environment and the time spent having lunch with my gf and uni friends. However no matter what, I believe strongly that I will not be staying in science field forever. Hence I have just made a surprising move: I quitted my wonderful job and went ahead to help my dad in his hawker business selling fried oyster, fried kway teow, hokkien mee and carrot cake.

In fact i'm not sure if i made the right decision. By doing so, I will be spending less time with my gf, I will have to leave my excellent boss, I have to be in a hot and extremely oily environment to work in, and my relationship with my parents may be worse in the long run due to unforeseen conflict. Anyway I have already worked for 2 weeks now and everything is still alright.

Most important news is that I have successfully proposed to my girlfriend! I wouldn't say it's a surprising move, but it has been the most wonderful thing I have did in my entire life. I remembered from the days i'm in primary school, secondary school, JC and army being single and feeling "unwanted"... especially in the army when I even felt no one on earth care whether i'm dead or not, other than my parents who attended my Passing Out Parade in BMT.. I chased after so many girls, and none of them really wanted me to be their bf.. felt very miserable.. until one day I found this beautiful girl dressed with an angelic white cover on the first Biostatistics lecture.. Thank you so much for willing to accept the imperfect me.. thanks so much for accepting me as who I am.. Thanks so much for your love.. Thank you Lord for your wonderful arrangement.. Indeed, there is a time for everything.. right now I just want to share with you my life which God has so abundantly blessed me with.. I don't want to wait until I lose you to learn to appreciate you.. I just want you now..

Having worked for 2 weeks, I'm still trying to adapt to the new working environment. Made many friends with uncles and aunties, and some are really funny. Most importantly, they treat me as adult and not as a kid though i'm the youngest.. I manage to learn how to cook carrot cake and fried oyster efficiently, and still trying to learn fried kway teow and hokkien mee. Rest assurred, once I have master the cooking, Singapore will still have fried kway teow to eat for the next generation to come. I will not let this food culture extinct.. ( hopefully.. :P )

Last but not the least, I hope everyone will be able to do things you like.. not because of money, not because of fame, but because you enjoyed your job and enjoyed every moment working.. something I learn from an auntie.. :) smile always! Life is too short to feel sad..

General thoughts

2010-03-29T16:31:00.006+08:00

ZOOM!! 4 months passed and it has been long since i last updated my blog!

In fact there is nothing much in life that i crave for because i already had almost everything i wanted.. :P

I have great parents, great gf, great siblings, great friends around me, and a great and interesting job! Enjoyed my gf company every weekend and i appreciate your time and effort~ truly like what i'm doing now.. and of course with the occasional mahjong session as well as the delightful KOI bubble tea which has recently caught my taste bud!! ( I LOVE the honey black tea ) But on the other hand, i think there is not much of a future being just a research officer for the rest of my life. Guess one have to make sacrifices for passion.. which is science.. with all the competition eyeing for a good phD scholarship, my chances are close to slim.. Hence i hope i can find a job that i can stay for life..

Yet it would be good to start a business! Plenty of opportunities around me.. i hope there is one that suit me! Haiz.. fickle minded i am.. i must really do something for myself since my lifespan is running up every moment.. I do consider helping my dad in his business if i can't find the job i like.. Cannot find passion?? Guess it would be more practical to go for money instead.

Saw this quote on the train and i think it's meaningful..
"Some pursue happiness, others create it."

I don't believe in superstitious. I believe destiny lies in your very own hand.. and with the guidence of the Lord, i can create a happiness that i always wanted.. more often than not, life don't always go according to my plan.. but what can i do?? feeling helpless sometimes.. anyway I will update my blog again.. pretty soon i hope.. :)

Just side track a little.. this is what i learn when i'm working:
It does not matter how much you have done for your boss. Most importantly, you must know how to talk cock. Once you know how to talk cock, you can come to work late, go for long hours of lunch break, gossip, slack and still get the liking of your boss. Joseph Joseph, if you want to make a hell good image of yourself and get recognize for the things you have done, go and learn how to talk cock. Just don't screw up your experiments and u will be well rewarded. Why the bloody hell should i go work at 7am or even 6.30am for my experiments and still be regarded as "not enthusiatic" in the end. Passion is not everything. Money IS.

A busy life

2010-01-25T22:04:00.007+08:00

Life has gone by so quickly!! Hmm.. not to talk about my laziness in updating my blog.. there are just too many things happening in my life.. lovely times, playing times, working times, unhappy times... nonetheless, i'm thankful for everything that has happened!! Let me just briefly update with a few photos!! Too many photos to put in this blog anyway... :P
Went to Treetop talk with my dear, my bro and his gf.. :)Unfortunately, it rained heavily until we are thoroughly drenched.. trust me.. we are totally wet..

Had a steamboat session with the NTU girls during Christmas 2009!!

And not to forget the Christmas gathering with my gf's poly friends!! They have been a group of wonderful mahjong kaki.. haha..

Hmm.. and my dear and i manage to go Taiwan from the 8th Jan 2010 till 14th Jan 2010!! It's not the place that matters, it's the company.. :) anyway the place is very nice and beautiful as well!! Went to quite a few places led by Amber and friends, and most of the time.. shopping spree for us!!

Li Shi manage to catch the "imprisoned" monkey!! So cute!! Reminds me of imprisoned by SAF.. sad.. haha.. Look at the turtle Yong Jia caught!! They are best friends already.. haha..

and the Domo was caught by Li Chen!! I like the teeth.. haha..

Flashing image of the local train behind us!!

All in all, i really did enjoyed my time in Taiwan!! Thanks so much dear for being there for me always.. I appreciated you a lot!! Bought a few things for my beloved family too.. Back at work, life has been fun as well!! Experiments after experiments and you never know what kind of interesting results you produce.. when face with problems, we have to crack our brain juice to make it right.. wow.. i love science.. haha.. research is fun! And i hope my next update will be soon!!

Singapore Science Centre

2009-10-31T23:45:00.002+08:00

Today is such a happy yet tired day!! Li Shi and me went to see the "Body Works" in Singapore Science Centre and it was really an experience.. the body are so beautifully preserved and i really respect those volunteers who willing gave up their body for education/research purposes.. Anyway we are not suppose to take any photos in the Body Works Exhibition, but we manage to visit other stations which allow camaras to go clicking away~ Now let the photos do the talking!

At the entrance of Singapore Science Centre:

Magic show!

Droplets that can go up and down.. interesting!

Effect of some dry ice landing on water..

Bacteria in cartoon form!

I like this mummy!

The power of solar radiation..

Until it bleaches my photo.. sian.. hmm... i'm absorbing light energy!!

Beautiful cosmos..

Solar power!

Creating lightning just by pushing a button!!

DNA made in Legos!! We are so science..

Li Shi standing besides a male karyotype.. :P

So cartoon again!! Notice Li Shi's shirt glowing brightly??

On our journey to know more about viruses!!

May i be thin like bones...

.. and may i be fatty bom bom..

I'm stuck in a nose!! ( btw, there is a funny smell in there.. )Biohazard symbol!! Be careful!!needles forming the shape of my hands!

The IPPT station i hate the most.. i don't like the tension created on my feet..

There are so many things for you to explore!! After which at about 6.30pm we had our fav Fish & Co for dinner, shopped a while in JP before heading back home.. not bad for a saturday.. though it was tiring, the day was educational and well spent.. :) Thanks dear for your wonderful company.. i appreciate every moment spent with you... :)

25th Birthday Baby

2009-10-24T23:59:00.015+08:00

Wow.. today was such a surprise.. everything happen so quickly and in a blink of time, my birthday ended with much joy and blessings although i'm down with a flu~

Thanks everyone for all your birthday wishes!! Thanks Li Shi, Esther, Steph, Desi ( my ex maid ), Joshua, Yu Ting, Eunice, Moses, Ying Xiu, Hui Ting, Tracey, Zhi Hui, Qing Qi Teacher, Angela, Jie Hui, Yongxin, Isaac, Ming Keat, Chen Wei, Daniel, Yiling, Wei Ping, Kian Hong, Christine, Xiu Hui, Huilin, Wee Hong, Pika Nicholas, Xiang Ting, Jeremy and Shajib in Korea for all of your birthday wishes!! Thanks Hui Ting for calling me personally and wish me happy birthday.. appreciated! Thanks Hui Jun, Wei Bin, Si Qi, Stanley, C3, Gwen, Ivory, Jia Yu, Jia En, Elsie and Wee Hong for your belated birthday wishes!!! Thanks Katja, Dana, Thava and Joey Xu for your belated birthday wishes too.. :)

Thanks for your birthday present Dear.. It is the most wonderful present i have ever received!! Almost cried when i saw what u've done for me.. I appreciate your time, effort and money in making it all possible.. all the memories.. they meant so much to me.. Thanks Josh and Yu Ting for your present too! The shirt is very nice and trendy and i will definitely wear it.. :) Thanks Eunice for your lovely jar! It looks like a "fatty" jar.. haha..

Thanks Huilin, Karen, June, Jie Hui and Moon for celebrating Li Shi and my birthday!! Thanks so much for the time, money, effort and chocolatey birthday cake.. I appreciate all of your lovely company from my heart. Thanks Qing Qi Teacher for your treat!! Appreciate your treat and precious time in Hong Kong Cafe... Thanks for the Sushi Teh treat from Ying Xiu, Kok Loon, Dana, Vey and Thava.. thanks for the company! Most importantly, thank you Papa Mama, my beloved parents, for your treat at Chomp Chomp.. Thanks Papa Mama for your beautiful watch too.. I know it's not cheap.. and i appreciate it..

Thank you church friends for your celebration too.. Thanks Hui Fen and Jia En for your birthday card from Peking! They are so cute.. haha.. thanks Huiping, Wen Min, Krystin, Moses, Shan Shan, Shu Fen, Preacher Dong and wife, Jun Yao, Joanna, Yee Chien, Eunice, An Quan uncle, Joseph Shan for your celebration... Thanks for the nice chocolate cake and birthday card.. and thanks Huiping for buying the cake.. i appreciate what all of you have done for me.. i didn't do anything for u all, but u all still remember.. thanks..

God bless me with lots of good friends in my life.. I'm so thankful that God place each and everyone of them in my life.. thankful for all my family and friends and i pray that God will bless all of them in their everyday life with happiness and joy.. :) Although life is short and birthday are just another normal day for me, but at this moment, i'm thankful for everything..

Little things in life..

2009-10-12T23:34:00.002+08:00

Monday came.. and surprisingly it's not as blue as what i thought.. :)

Today is not only my beloved 22nd month anniversary with my dear dear, we ROs have a mini bonding session! After work, i waited another 2 hours before we can finally feast our dinner at Sho Teppan in Ion Orchard~

Haha.. and this is my Kimchi Chicken Teppanyaki!! Hmm... we have to cook the food ourselves, but when i tried to combine the chicken with the Japanese sesame oil, it tastes fantastic!!

On top of these happy events, i got a lovely "present" from my dear dear on sunday.. Thanks so much for keeping your promise and gave me what i wanted! Your time and sacrifices is truly the best present i have ever received.. If only everyday is sunday.. Just want to let u know that you gave me my happiest moment.. :)

Chocolatey brownie!

2009-09-20T18:40:00.007+08:00

It's sunday.. and i'm all alone at home again.. feeling nothing to do, i surfed the internet and chanced upon a website that teach me how to make brownie.. i've decided to put my trust in the website and go ahead with my brownie mission!! This is my first try.. and i must say that it is very successful.. :) and i didn't use the pre-mixed brownie flour from NTUC, i started off with plain flour.. *beaming*

wow wow wow.... look at these brownies!! I've tasted just a few crust of them and i find it stunningly tasty... ( secret ingredient ).. WAHAHAA!! and i used up some ingredients from my cookie baking + additional $22 bucks to buy the rest of the ingredients to make about 35 chocolately brownie.. hmm... means on average i spent at least 60 cents per brownie.. not bad i think.. considering the nuts itself took up 1/3 of the cost..Guess what kind of nut i used this time? =P

and on saturday, we celebrated Eunice 22nd birthday! happy birthday my sister! May the Lord bless you so much that people around you are blessed too.. =)

Kinda like the Ferrero-rocher-like-chocolate crust at the bottom of the cake.. Most importantly, I'm thankful for everything God has given me.. wonderful parents, interesting siblings, lovely gf and supportive friends.. :) i'm contented now.. and a contented man is a happy man.. :)

The 12 Research Officers + Cookies entry

2009-09-14T22:13:00.005+08:00

haha.. and the training is still on for me! Went to Singapore Institute for Clinical Sciences last tue for some course and the 12 RO's manage to take a photo together finally!!

We are the ones who will be together.. through thick and thin.. :P

and on sunday, i managed to bake cookies once again! Using an average of about $15 to buy the ingredients, it's my 3rd attempt and i'm proud of everything i did.. :) These are the cranberry cookies!!

In fact the chocolate cookies were not up to expectation.. the chocolate chip melted while mixing and it looks a little ugly.. in the end i have to coat it with dark chocolate.. extra step + extra time + extra effort... but the very nature of the cookie itself turns out exceptionally good..

and this is a cute note from some of the fellow ROs!! So encouraging.. thanks! *shy*

Thanks Dearest Li Shi, Wan Ni, June, Ming Keat, Adrian, Thava, Katja, Ying Xiu, Wei Ping, Karen, Wei Xiang, Peter, Clarice, Yi Ling, Nicholas, Desi, Mona and my beloved Esther for your compliment and much encouragement!

Though i may be baking this once in a blue moon, i hope my cookie did brought happiness to those who ate it.. :)

My Lab Members!

2009-09-10T21:23:00.003+08:00

Took a picture with my lab members today! And we are all very nice people.. =P Starting from the right is my Principle Investigator Katja, Research Officer YingXiu, Post Doc Vey, Senior Research Officer Thava and the cute me! Look at the mess behind us... it's beautifully packed by me.. *shy*It has been really long since i last blogged! But i'm still the same Joseph.. Everyday have been a learning experience for me! At least up till now, i enjoyed working life.. haha.. i never knew producing good results can be so addictive.. shit.. maybe this is the trap for a scientist to stay in this field..

General thoughts

2009-08-09T18:04:00.004+08:00

Marriage is not about love
Marriage is about money

Indonesia is such a selfish country. You burn your forest as if the whole South East Asia is yours

NDP is none of my business anyway since i've applied for the tickets unsuccessfully for all these years

SAF sucks. A waste of my time

Anything bad is my fault. I feel that i'm a puppet sometimes. When people want to use, they will control me. When i'm not needed, i will be cast aside. But this is part and parcel of life.

But still i give thanks..
for Teacher 琴琪 advice.. for God is still gracious afterall.. thanks for your precious time chatting with me.. and your encouragement.. it has been long since someone encourage me..
for my parents.. for they are still alive and they loves me..
for my gf.. for she still loves me..
for my siblings.. for they are always there for me..
for i have a job..
for a healthy body, mind and soul..
for my wonderful friends from church, work and school..

Depressed

2009-07-26T17:15:00.004+08:00

Been feeling sad and depressed for the past weeks.. personal reasons.. it's just my fault.. what else can i say.. i asked too much and i should just not bother and live with it.. Who am i? Just a follower.. people say what i do what.. if i don't do people not happy.. and when i say something, i won't get it.. what is the use of me saying anything anyway.. haiz..

Immediately after my convocation on Fri, i took my IPPT in bedok camp on sat and i finally manage to pass it!! Been training my weakest station for the past 3 weeks and finally it has been paid off.. No RT for me!! YEY!! but thinking of reservist next week makes me sick.. i hate the regimentation.. one more time: SAF sucks

and i'm always alone on sun.. sickening..

Convocation 24/07/2009

2009-07-24T23:55:00.001+08:00

Finally i have graduated from NTU with all my beloved friends! and i'm thankful for all the support given to me by my parents, siblings and loved ones.. :)

We have graduated!! Finally..

My parents~ Thanks so much for everything u have done for me!!

Thanks Wen Wei and Esther for coming!

My beloved Eunice and Francis helping me to take photographs!

Li Shi's family!

Esther and Engly~

Jing Fen and Christine!

Miss Goh and me!

Kiat Whye and Si Qi~!!

My family.. where is Josh sia..

Qi Hui and Jian Zhong!!

June, Hui Lin and Zhi Hui~!

Li Shi's Poly friends~

So many photos in so many people's camara.. haha.. guess have to spent some time getting the photos from all of them! Didn't really take much photo because it was so busy on that day! Anyway really appreciate all those who came and view this occasion.. Although this has officially ended my days in NTU, it is just the beginning of another learning phase in life.. hope all everyone will be able to excel in life and do those who love u proud! All the best to all my friends!!

Feeling sucky

2009-07-12T16:30:00.004+08:00

It has been a month since i worked already.. Being an honours grad, i started off being in the lowest rung.. absolutely despensible.. and sometimes i feel like i'm a "high class maid-in-the-lab" kind of person.. clean here clean there.. receive orders and do.. have to be reprimanded with a smiley face.. whatever i do is wrong.. whatever i do sucks.. whatever i do frustrate people.. i'm just a nobody among those somebodies...

Not complaining at all.. i'm new and have lots of things to learn.. made a few mistakes and have to learn from it.. cannot expect much from life either.. i can only receive what was given to me.. if it was not given to me, no matter how much i long for it, it will never be mine..

Then i learn to let go of things.. don't bother so much... but sometimes i tend not to bother anymore.. more and more depressed each day.. maybe i'm just getting used to a new life.. a life which i cannot have everything in life.. i am a puppet.. always living in people's expectation.. maybe that's the price to pay for being ungodly.. people delights in ungodly people cos i see people fucking christians happily and blaming them for all their wrong doings without knowing that we are humans just like them and needed God. People are happy when u are far from God, and i will show people how fucked up i can be when i'm not close to God. When u are among fuckers, u have to act like one sometimes to protect yourself.

Fucking SAF ( this shows my ungodliness again).. really live up to your name. You gave me the option to defer because of new employment, and i tried to defer because i have some training in my company. U rejected my deferment. U think i defer to play is it? SAF sucks to the core.

What else can i say.. I will never get what i wanted.. if i want something, i will become a different Joseph to achieve it..

Indeed

2009-06-28T18:08:00.003+08:00

A few random thoughts..

Indeed i worry a lot in life..
Worrying indeed doesn't make me live longer.. nor will it make me grow fatter..
Indeed.. where your money is, where your heart will be..
Indeed.. when i forget about things that belongs to me, that thing does not belong to me at that moment..
Although a flower does not live long, God gave the flowers a beautiful coat to wear.. how much more important are we to God..
I always believe if i'm willing to spend a lot of time on someone, that person means a lot to me..
I would rather gain eternal life and lose everything on earth, than to gain everything on earth and to lose eternal life..

Christians under attack

2009-06-11T12:54:00.012+08:00

I'm not someone very passionate about my own religion Christianity. But when i saw news about christians being prosecuted, my hearts felt for them.

I would like to talk about the Christian Singaporean couples who were found guilty of sedition for distributing evangelical publications. Will this publication bring hostility between Muslim and Christians? I don't think so actually. They can jolly well just throw whatever given to them into the dustbin. By bringing them to court, it already shows the hostility of some Muslims. This is what was given to the Muslims:
http://www.scribd.com/doc/2264666/Who-Is-Allah

Part of the content talking about Muslims is this:
History proves that before Islam came into existence, the Sabeans in Arabia worshipped the moon god, who married the sun goddess, who gave birth to three goddesses. They were called Al-lat, Al-uzza and Manat. They later became idols and were worshipped throughout that part of the world as "Daughters of Allah". The moon god was Allah. He was just one of 360 idolsin the kabah in Mecca, and Muhammad knew all about this... .... in the 1950's a major temple to the moon god was excavated at Hazor in Palestines. Two idols of the moon god were found, proving Allah was a pre-islamic pagan deity...

To read more about the origin of the word Allah:
http://www.bible.ca/islam/islam-allah-pre-islamic-origin.htm
http://www.bible.ca/islam/islam-moon-god.htm

Why are the prosecuting Muslims so angry about this? If a religion is true, shouldn't it stands firm over generations? Although churches did not distribute this particular materials "Who is Allah", they have been distributing evangelistic publications all these while all over Singapore. Shall all Singaporean Christians be condemnned? Did christians sue the author of Da Vinci Code Dan Brown for blasphemy? No.. why? It's just a mystery-detective fiction novel. Seriously if you know about your own religion, why make the fuss at all? If you know something is not true, why get so agitated about it? Truth will stand till the end. Do you know an average of 6 millions Muslims convert to Christianity every year? Why is it that South Korea with a traditional Buddhist faith have 1/3 of its population being Christians and still exploding for more? Just search online and it will tell u the answer.

Indeed as prophesied in the bible signs of the End of the Age:
"You must be on your guard. You will be handed over to the local councils and flogged in the synagogues. On account of me you will stand before governers and kings as witnesses to them. And the gospel must first be preached to all nations. Whenever you are arrested and brought to trial, do not worry beforehand about what to say. Just say whatever is given you at the time, for it is not you speaking, but the Holy Spirit."
Mark 13:9-11

I'm not trying to promote any tension between any races or religion. I just want some fairness.

About the AWARE ( Association of Women for Action and Research ), this makes me feel uncomfortable as well. Months before the AGM on suntec, about 4/5 of the women just joined AWARE as new members. Needless to say, 3/4 of the newly formed executive committee went to the new members. This time, instead of being pro-homosexual, the new committee wants AWARE to be anti-homosexual because they happen to be christians. Old committe Bo Song that so many new members in the committee are christians having anti-homosexual mindset, have successfully replace them in the AGM in suntec. They are the ones who entangle the religious issues into the AWARE organisation.

To those who support the old committee:
Since u support the pro-homosexual committee, u might as well teach your future generations to be homosexual as well. I'm not against homosexuals themselves, but it's their act that i'm against. What is your opinion when your daughter is fucking a girl, and your son is fucking with a guy? Anal sex and didldos lor. What do you expect from lesbians and gays? Complementary penis and virgina? So much about women women and women. People are celebrating Women's day and mediacorp even advertise about how great women are. 7pm show feature how important girls are and how cheapen guys are. Guys flirt, gamble and don't respect their spouse. What about female teacher having sex with 15 year old male student? This world is fucked up understand?

SP Graduation for Joshua and Yuting

2009-05-29T22:09:00.005+08:00

Hi everyone! For the past three days, i have been busy attending 2 graduation ceremony held in SP! Congratulations to Yu Ting and Joshua for completing your diploma in SP!!

Me and Josh at Yu Ting's Grad! Cute Yu Ting, cute Josh and CUTE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lovely couple.. haha..

Before the receiving of Diploma cert..

Smart Joshua.. haha..

The Sengkang Mahjong Trios

Li Shi and me at Josh Grad!!Anyway it has been a nice experience the ceremony. I believe learning do not stop here. Keep on upgrading your skills and better yourself for the future!! All the best to your future endeavours Joshua and Yu Ting!! Waiting anxiously for my Convocation now.. :P

NTU FYP Results out!!

2009-05-22T01:26:00.007+08:00

Before i begin, Happy 20th Birthday Joshua!! All the best to your relationship and i hope u will become an good son, a good soldier to be, a good boyfriend and a good brother.. JIA YOU!

Suddenly all the luck comes to me after my loss at the genting trip.. I want to be thankful for a few events that have happened on 22nd May 2009!!

1) I'm so glad i got A+ for my Final Year Project!!
2) And i got Second Upper Class for my Honours Degree!! WOHOO!! Thanks Li Shi for your guidence during my days in NTU!!
3) Which means i'm qualified for a position as a Research Officer in A Star!! YEY!!

And i'm thankful to God that i have secured a job before i graduated despite the poor economy.. and i'm thankful for the wonderful relationship He gave me.. His grace is sufficient for me!! Had a nice dinner with Huifen and Pan Pan yesterday and i appreciate your hospitality.. :)

Genting Trip

2009-05-20T23:09:00.000+08:00

Yoz everyone! Haha.. Once again it's me blogging my way!! I'm just back from Genting trip and guess what? I manage to lose a total of about SGD$200 in the casino! YEPEE!!

Ok.. i know it's wrong to gamble.. anyway, these are some pictures i took! A few only.. cos i spent lots of time playing in "non-photographic area".. lol.. look at the superbly comfortable bus we opt for!! Very comfortable.. not only are there entertainment such as games and movies, there's even massage chair for us to enjoy!!

Tada! Reached at the top of the clouds!

Living in First world hotel.. quite nice and cosy.. i like it!

The colourful first world hotel we stayed in!

Outdoor theme park!

Desserts we ate on our second day..

can u see the honey i was dripping into the herbal jelly??

All in all, i enjoyed the genting trip.. i believe it is not the place that makes the trip happy, but it's truly the wonderful company that make my trip wonderful.. i enjoyed every moment with you dear.. although we did lost some money, i enjoy the process of gambling.. the end results does not matter.. and i think i already master the Art of Gamling and winning!! ( i'm not an addict yet k.. :P ) An unforgettable trip.. Thanks for being with me always..

Singapore Flyer

2009-05-15T22:16:00.001+08:00

Met up with my dear and we decided to go to the Singapore flyer! Taking a shuttle bus which cost us about S$2 per person!!

Welcome to the world's largest observation wheel!!

Taking a shot at the Nicoll highway!! Beautiful scenery..

Can u see the colourful temporary stadium built beside the Esplanade?

Building of the hotel cum casino!!

My cute dear and me!

A model of the Singapore casino which can only be seen in the flyer!

Ending of the flying trip.. haha..

All in all, the experience was nice and memorable. I believe it will be a better view once the casino was built and the 900 million flower garden project in marina south was completed. All the best to the future of Singapore!! I love Singapore!!

Dinner and Dance!

2009-05-08T12:59:00.002+08:00

Haha.. Days spent with friends are limited.. After graduation, don't know when i'll be able to see them again! And on the 8th May 2009, School of Biological Sciences have our very own Dinner and Dance!! Let the pictures do the talking!! ( Or should i say, i'm lazy to type anything.. haha!! )
Karen, Li Shi, Me, Kiat Whye, Huilin

June, Huilin, Esther, Karen and Li Shi

Peggy and Kiat Whye

Pretty girls wearing a mask!

Taking a shot with all the early SBS birds!!

Me and my dearest and pretty dear!

Yue Feng, Esther Oon, June, Huilin, Kiat Whye, Li Shi, Karen and Esther!

Esther Oon, Feng Ting, Hozanna, Charmaine and Peggy!

See Liang, Me, Engly and Nic!

The girls taking a pic with Prof Bose! He is our fav Prof.. haha..

Charmaine and Jonita taking a pic with me!!

Hozanna and Charmine, the two buddy in school taking a pic with the cute me!

My best friend Yue Feng and me.. :)

Girls taking pic with Prof Valerie!

Nice and beautiful inside Intercontinental Hotel!~

One Grad Bear for all of us! This bear must be angelic.. haha..

Table Number 11 taking a shot!

Zheng Wei and Wei Bin!

Jian Zhong, me and Wei Bin!!

CCC and Wei Chao taking a pic with me!

Me and Bose.. lol..

Huilin and Roderick~

table 11 taking another shot at the stage!

My blog reader Stanley! haha.. don't worry.. i will remember u!

Taking a shot with some SBS couples.. :P

Nic, Esther, Li Shi and me! I think this is nice.. haha..

All in all, i enjoyed every moments with my friends!! They made an impact in my life and i will remember each and every one of them.. Wish you the best in your future endeavours!!

Poster Day!

2009-05-06T13:33:00.007+08:00

Finally the Poster Day has arrived!! This represents the final milestone of my study path in NTU and i'm really happy that i've completed my studies with all the wonderful friends around me! Although the photos here do not include all my friends, i still want to thank them for being part of my life! Thanks Nic, SiQi, Anne and Eric for chatting with me! Thanks to all my friends like Li Shi, Weibin, Jian Zhong, C3, Yue Feng, Huilin, Karen, Zhi Hui, Jie Hui, Yuan Chunn, June, Si Qi, Ying Yang, Christine, Kelvin, Xiang Ting, Kim, Jonita, Hozanna, Charmaine, Ming Kiat, Johnson, Xinyi, Wei Chao, Kheng Boon, Nic, Esther, Zi Xian, small Nic, Agnes, Li Hui, Jessica, Yu Sheng, Cheng Wei, Engel, Haris, Harrick, Jimmy, Yok Hian, Zhi Shan, Ariyo, Jing Fen, Yun, Zhen Wei, James, Min Li, Jeremy, Lavin, Feng Ting, Gin, Marc, Xiao Hui and many many more for making an impact in my life when i'm in SBS. Not forgetting all my friends in BMS who are in China now, all the best to your TCM studies!! Last but not least, i would like to thank everyone who make my fyp project a success, including everyone in HSA Pharmaceutical Lab, my parents and the support from my loved one..

Taking a photo with Li Shi and my beautiful poster!! So colourful!!! Why didn't win prize sia.. lol..

Taking a photos with Li Shi's poster!

Hmm... helping the girls to take a group shots with all their 7 posters!
Si Qi's poster

Huilin's poster

Jie Hui's poster

Yuan Chunn's poster

June's poster

Li Shi's poster

Karen's poster Quiet place after the poster day..

Well this is the final day as a student in NTU SBS. Graduation is really just another phase of my life and i'm glad i've did what i'm suppose to do as a student, son, brother and friend. Life is unpredictable, but God has been very very gracious to me. He has given me so much in life and i appreciate everything that comes into my life. I hope i will be able to get the job i like soon and carry on with my life with a thankful heart..

Last few days in HSA

2009-04-17T16:16:00.009+08:00

Finally submitted my thesis on thurs!! One last step towards graduation is the poster day which will be held on May.. :P Anyway on fri, HSA gave those poly interns and us a mini farewell lunch! Took a few photos too!
This is my supervisor Dr Zeng Yun and me! Thanks so much for everything you have done to me... without you, life will be very tough in HSA.. but with you, life is equally tough.. haha.. nothing good comes out with easy stuff.. :P

Gwen and me~ Notti girl always bully me!

Haha.. these two person always like to make fun of me.. guess without them around, life in HSA will definitely be very bored and helpless..

These are the NTU intern students! (other than that person who are pointing some fingers.. haha..) Happy to know them.. they are always so happy when i see them.. :) i think this picture looks nice.. :P

Ying Xiu and me! Don't just see her quiet quiet leh.. she beat me in terms of lameless.. wahahaha!!

Xinyi and Shea Mei~ Thanks Shea Mei for always being so friendly to us... :P

May Ki and me! Thanks for very willing to lend me your lab stuff when i'm still new to this place.. :)

Xinyi and May Ki! Salina, May Ki, Xinyi, Jessie, Angela and Charmaine!! Wow.. all girls sia.. girls power!

...and the dung is here!

This is Jessie, who really really helped me a lot in my thyroid experiment! Thanks for teaching me lots of things, thanks for helping me with the LC-MS/MS, thanks for being a very nice friend to me! Life is HSA is happier with you around!

Me, Jessie and Hui Shi!

Gwen and Xinyi!

This is Miss Chey! Haha.. thanks for helping me source for the samples for my project!

Ada and Peggy! Thanks Peggy for being very very helpful and friendly to me.. i appreciate it! Thanks for being a good friend...Simon and me! Simon is also very helpful and friendly to be with! haha.. looks like he is one of the few guys in HSA.. so blessed... LOL..

All in all, the final year project in Health Science Authority is really a fruitful one.. although i do not dream of getting an EXCELLENT, WONDERFUL, MARVELLOUS, EXCITING grade from the thesis, i have gained many wonderful friendships.. Thanks for being a nice friend to me.. i appreciate all that you have done for me.. :)

Interviews

2009-03-15T23:15:00.003+08:00

Read a news today and the Chinese newspaper talked about some marine engineer jobs that can earn about SGD$7000/- yet no takers for the job.

Don't talk cock please. I don't think there are no takers for the job, but the company themselves are the cocky ones. They are the picky ones who wanted the best people for the jobs. I believe people DO sent out application, but all they do is just reject, reject and eject off their seat. Among all the job application i've sent out, none of them asked me for interview. If you are seriously looking for graduates with only first class honours or just phD scholars, then please state so and stop wasting other people's time. People spent hours after hours, filling up the bloody same old "experience" and "subjects taken in O level / A level" etc for upteen times, yet no response from you. From what i know from my friends, some interview are fucking demoralising. If you have no thoughts of employing someone, don't spent the next 1 hour talking cock with them. Worse, make them feel as if they are the worse bastard in the world.

I'm not angry, just stating the fact. Felt tired these days.. Felt useless as well.. Haven't been a good guy these days..

Tried to carry a one month old baby today.. the feeling was tremendously peaceful when she fell asleep on your hands..

Cookies

2009-03-05T01:09:00.004+08:00

Learning how to bake cookies!Thanks Eunice for teaching me.. haha.. Though it doesn't taste excellent, i believe everything starts off with a first step! Baking it with love..

FYP

2009-03-01T22:07:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling much better from the two episodes of fever for the past 3 weeks! Hmm.. in a month's time, i have to sent my thesis draft.. but.. ahem.. didn't accomplish much results.. sian!! I hope to use the LC-MS/MS machine more often.. no results = lousy class of honours!

Anyway i believe life is still good. SBS Graduation will be on 24th July 2009! And guess what, that same day is my mum's birthday!! haha! Finally i'm going to graduate from NTU! but i believe there is still a long learning journey after i graduate.. learning to cope with working life.. learning interpersonal relationship skills.. learning to cooperate with colleagues.. i think this is more demanding.. lol.. studying is much simpler..

Hmm.. after a small jog today, i ate a nice dumpling noodle meal before popping in an aspirin. I am not sick, just that i'm deeply enticed by the health benefits of it. Let me tell u why!

Aspirin has the following benefits:
Antipyretic (reduce fever)
Anti-inflammatory
Anti-clotting ( prevent heart attack and strokes )

Don't u think this is a very useful drug? For those at risk of heart attack and strokes, it would be very beneficial to bring it along with you wherever you go. Once you suffer from heart attack, dissolve a tablet in water and drink it. You will have a much higher chance of recovery after that.

Common side effect: Gastric bleeding ( just ensure you take the tablet with food, and take in plenty of fluid! )

Haha.. am i educational? Actually life for me now is peaceful, nice and wonderful! No matter how my fyp seems sucky, i'm still going to enjoy every moment of my life.. cos i live once only!

Sick

2009-02-23T22:34:00.002+08:00

Been falling sick for the past 1 month.. don't know what really happen.. but i notice some progression of how i usually got sick..

1) bad breath
2) sore throat
3) high fever
4) extremely white and fluid mucus
5) persistant cough
6) extremely green mucus
7) tired

Have been through this cycle for 2 times within 3 weeks.. why am i feeling so weak? Haze? Improper diet? or purely not enough rest??

Also, i suspected i may have acetonitrile ( ACN ) poisoning.. been using too much ACN that it's coming to find me for revenge already.. and i think my fyp is going to die.. *cry* no progress at all.. i'm so sad.. and sick.. and tired..

Dad's Birthday + Valentine Day!

2009-02-22T13:26:00.002+08:00

On the 8th Feb, we celebrated our beloved dad's birthday! This is the cake we bought for him.. a delicious blueberry cake!

And of course.. on the 14th Feb, we had our 2nd valentine day together.. *beaming*

These days i'm so busy in HSA.. doing my FYP and still i have results that are sucky.. i wonder if i can get the class of honours i wanted.. Another week is coming and i hope everything will be fine! Nothing much happen in my life. Just looking around for jobs.. I believe there are lots of choices, just that they are not what people are looking for.
Passion or Money or Time?
If you go for Passion? No money, no time.
If you go for Money? No passion, no time.
If you go for Time? No money, no passion, because u're practically slacking.

How to choose sia.. Another milestone in my life is coming and i'm still undecided.. feeling helpless..

Family Reunion Dinner

2009-01-26T23:34:00.004+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone!! Thanks Wei Bin, Yue Feng, Kiat Whye, Tze Siong, Tracey, Esther, Huiting, Wan Chin, Shaz, Hui Jun mei mei, Xue Zhen, Lai Wen + Nai Nai, Mei Jie and music teacher for your new year sms wishes!! Thanks Qin Qi teacher and Uncle Daniel for your wonderful advice on relationship, jobs and life lessons.. i learn a lot when i'm talking to both of you.. and am thankful for the encouragement..

As usual, my family had our reunion dinner!! Look at the wonderful spread of food my beloved Father prepared during CNY!!
( Picture did not include "buddha-jump-over-the-wall" dish!!

And this is my family.. not an easy chance for all of us to get together, but still, everyone of them is important to me~ thank God for putting them in my life, giving us peace and for protecting each and everyone of us safe!

And i cannot believe i ate a total of 3 rubbery abalone alone.. abalone intoxication..

Short post

2009-01-13T23:41:00.004+08:00

hi everyone! Sorry for missing again.. FYP started for me and i'm rather happy being in HSA cos it's near my house! still coping well with my project right now.. haha.. anyway, just a few snapshots of what happened for the past weeks:

Xue Zhen left HSA for her 4th year study in NUS le! So sad.. she's like a walking dictionary to me and taught me a lot of things before she left.. thanks so much! And of course Xinyi who also helped me a lot during my days in HSA.. :)

And today i'm surprised by the food my maid cooked for me: spaghetti topped with cheeze, sliced ham and lovely sauce.. i stunned the moment i saw this sia..

And on 13th Jan 09 / 10pm, Yu Sheng and Jessica left for Sweden for their final year project!!

Guess i'm gonna miss them.. they have been very nice friends to me and i appreciate them! Do have a safe journey and most important, enjoy yourself!! It will definitely be a memorable and unforgettable experience..

A brand new year!

2009-01-01T23:02:00.008+08:00

Happy new year 2009 to everyone! The old has past.. and let's welcome the new year with a thanksgiving heart! Just a few photos i've taken over the past few days:
A church christmas gathering!! Esther, Me and Li Shi~Esther and Joshua during one of the church gathering! Where is Josh looking at sia.. the camara is here!! Esther and Krystin~

Esther and Wen Wei~!!

Had a Fish and Co lunch with my friends who have been to Korea with me!

Finally get to taste Singapore food!! And it's our favourite too!!!

Last but not the least, the food my maid prepared!! Isn't it lovely to taste her food again?

Been very happy that i can come back Singapore for Christmas and New Year!! Although there is not much activities, i appreciate the fact that i'm still healthy! Oh ya!! Ms Jane, the English Coordinator from Dong-A University ( South Korea ) emailed me and told me i got straight A+ for my exams!! WAHAHAHAA!!! It was a delighted present for me.. and it really make my stay in Korea a complete one. Thanks for the wonderful message! And congrats those who did well in the NTU exams.. for those who didn't do well, let's work hard for the coming FYP!! JIA YOU!! Never Give Up!

50kg

2008-12-23T00:54:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone! It's time to revive my very own blog! haha.. it has been 5 days since i returned from Korea.. Seriously, this is a wonderful trip for me. After i'm back in Singapore, i've been very busy helping my parents in their new stall in hougang! Slept at 5am for 2 days straight after i landed.. very very tired..
And i started my FYP today in Health Science Authority! Although Biopolis rejected me, i kinda like HSA cos it's near my house and i like the people there! Especially Dr Zhen Yun cos she seems like a nice person.. :) Hope everything will be alright as days goes by! Met up with my lovely dear and had a simple dinner.. weigh myself and finally.. i broke the 50kg mark!!! I've always been wanting to exceed my weigh above 50kg, and i did it! But i don't know why leh.. Because i ate too much fats in Korea? Or is it too cold in Korea that my body start producing fats? Anyway, i hope i will continue to grow fatter each day!

My 24th Birthday!

2008-10-30T22:28:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone! haha.. 24th October 2008 is my 24th Birthday!! But i'm not in Singapore.. and i'm not in Busan either.. well.. haha!! i went to Geojedo Island with Li Shi, Huilin, Karen and June! Also in South Korea.. haha.. and you can see it in my blog @ http://dong-a-university.blogspot.com/!!

These are my friends from Dong-A Uni dormitory celebrating my birthday with me!
Huang Qiang, Sajjad, FanDi, Thomas and me!

The cheese cake they bought for me!!

And this is the present my lovely dear dear bought for me! An mp4 to company me when i'm all alone in the dormitory.. :) Thanks so much for your thoughts!! Thanks for spending effort in buying, making a lovely video of us and writing a very romantic card to me!! I still wanna say that i'm very touched by what u wrote in the card.. :) appreciate all u have done for me!Haha.. and just before the trip to Geojedo island, Huilin, Karen and June bought me BB cream for men! Weather here is really dry and cold.. thanks so much for your kind thoughts too!! haha.. life will be less interesting in Busan without all of u.. LOL.. Thanks so much for all of your birthday wishes!! Wow.. i cannot believe it when i saw all these in facebook!! I don't go facebook already, but i guess people might leave some msg there? Thanks friends!!!!

David Wong
Happy Birthday~ really long time no see....

Lynette Lin wrote at 10:31pm
best wishes to u... happy birthday!

Yongxin Hong wrote at 8:05pm
hey!! happy birthday! :)

Serene Heng wrote at 6:18pm
hey joseph! happy birthday!! hope ure loving busan as much as im loving seoul! eat more haemul tang!! i loved it while i was there in busan but huilin says that u guys are sick of seafood already!

Ng Wan Jing wrote at 6:05pm
Happy Bday in Korea! Its super cold in Beijing here! How's Korea?

Edward Tan wrote at 5:18pm
Happy Birthday!

Krystin Aw wrote at 5:03pm
Happy Birthday Delei! Greetings and blessings from Singapore

Frankie Koh wrote at 1:45pm
Blessed Birthday!from a.....................................................................far

Grace Wong wrote at 1:23am
Happy blessed birthday delei! Have fun in Korea!

MingKeat Sng wrote at 12:31am
Heys Joseph~~!! Happy birthday man! Hope u're having a great time over there man heh... and have a great celebration too !! Cheers :D

Angela Chi wrote at 11:34pm
Happy Birthday Geeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~ =) I hope that things are going really well for you =) Update me ar! xxxx

And in15 October, Hui Jun mei mei wrote this in Friendster:

HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY :X
YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !
Ok done buhbyes o,o

Haha.. U are so cute! Thanks so much for msging me in msn also for the birthday wishes!! U are appreciated.. :)
Thanks Uncle Daniel, Esther, Alister, Kin Hoong, Xiang Ting for your sms from Singapore! Haha.. Thanks Esther, Eunice, Hui Jun and Xiang Ting for wishing me birthday in msn too.. :) Like what xiang xiang said, "wo shi xing fu xiao nan ren now!"..

Thanks so much Weibin, Krystin, Zhi Hui, Yue Feng and Jian Zhong for your birthday wishes in my very own blog!! haha.. Thanks so much for remembering!!
25 Oct 08, 10:55 JZ: Happy birthday!!! Stay happy always. Enjoy the remaining time of your stay in Korea
24 Oct 08, 10:45 Moon: Happy Birthday!!! All the best...
24 Oct 08, 10:41 zhihui: HApppY 24th BDAY!!! How u have a nice celebration over at korea!! =D
24 Oct 08, 08:35 Krystin: Happy Birthday to You! I send u an email heez
24 Oct 08, 00:34 Wbin: Happy Birthday, dude!

Thank you papa mama for calling me when i'm in Geojedo to wish me happy birthday.. :) Your voice is the most precious..

And something really surprise me.. my roomie was returning back to dormitory on 29th October 10.30pm when he handed me this:

A letter from Singapore by Huifen!! Haha.. and thanks Jia En bro for sending your greetings too! This is really a surprise card beautifully made!!
haha.. this is the time my church friends celebrated by birthday with me in suntec! Mou Chuan, Huifen, Moses, Huiping, Kristin, Me and Eunice are in the picture!I'm so blessed.. so thanksful God place all my friends in my life.. i guess life will be different without all of them. I touched.. I'm really not worthy, but all of you are just too nice to me.. :) thanks!! Appreciate all of u.. :)

Better mist..

2008-10-17T23:56:00.006+08:00

Thanks so much friends.. Thanks so much for spending time to read my previous entry and typing encouraging msg to me! Appreciate all of you..

Thanks so much Krystin for your comments! I know God loves me.. and i hope you'll stick close to Him too.. I felt evil at times.. perhaps it's because i've not been really serious of my religion these few years.. I've changed.. i'm no longer the pure and innocent Delei.. haha.. but anyway, you have really been a great friend.. seriously.. Especially helping moses with his blog.. u're just too good to be true.. :)

Thanks Francis! I will not give up on myself, and i will not give up on the God who loves me.. If someone love you so much and die for you, will u give up that relationship so easily? haha.. i believe u're doing fine too in your life?? It has been long since i last prayed.. maybe i should learn to pray, even when things are rosy in my life.. take good care of Eunice and hope to see u soon!!

Thanks CCC.. haha.. it was really surprising to receive your msg! Never thought u actually read my blog.. well.. actually i do read your blog too.. haha! Seems that u like your car a lot!! A number of entries on it.. lol.. Anyway i hope you can do your FYP well in Biopolis.. Hope to see u soon when i'm back!

Thanks Zhi Hui.. haha.. How's everything? Thanks for having a heart-felt chat with me yesterday nite! Nice talking to you.. of course i hope everything will be alright for you too.. must tell me if anything happen ok? I believe i'm not alone.. haha.. and of course i can talk to you anytime! Sometimes i just want a person by my side.. to be a listening ear.. u know.. just beside? the feeling is different.. :) Do hope things work out for you~

Thanks Papa and Mama.. thanks for calling me.. i feel nice talking to you.. kinda miss home and miss you..

Thanks Jie Hui.. haha.. for remembering that my birthday is coming.. sorry that i forget yours.. haha.. or should i say, i didn't remember anybody's birthday other than my family members.. opps! But your effort is still appreciated.. :P

Thanks Cho Seong, Wei bin, Huifen, Moon, Chirstine, Ying yang, Cheng Wei and cute little Hui Jun mei mei for msging me in msn too! Feel happy talking to all of you.. :)

Finally, thanks dear for your precious time.. How do i know if i'm are important you? When your time is very precious now.. at this moment, every minute every hour, yet u're very willing to spent it with me.. I appreciate it.. I felt much much better after going out with you.. and i enjoyed every moment.. definitely.. :) Your presence itself already makes a lot of difference.. and it does not matter if the things we're doing are boring or not.. :) I'm sorry if i too demanding at times.. and i'm not sure how to be a really nice, caring and good bf, but i will learn everyday.. don't give up on me!! "No one can replace you".. :)

Time is precious for students like us now.. mid-term exam in Dong-A university is just 4 days time and i'm far from getting a good grades.. however i think no matter how busy i am, i should sit down quietly at the end of the day and really think of what i'm doing.. is it really worthwhile.. giving some time for myself and to appreciate people who cared for me.. thanks so much!!!

Mist

2008-10-10T01:42:00.004+08:00

I have been too demanding.. or maybe i cared too much.. or put too much hope.. i don't know what i should do.. wanted some things, but no matter how hard i try, i cannot get it.. felt useless.. still no matter how useless i feel, i can't get what i wanted at the end of the day.. or maybe the things i want is insignificant to everyone... ... what a loser i am..

Been feeling lonely these days.. lots of people around me, but still feel lonely.. lots of happy things happen, but at the end of the day, i have to face loneliness myself.. especially now.. in wee hours.. i feel God has abandoned me somehow.. I'm sorry God.. i'm suppose to show people your love for them, but i failed.. no one believes me.. i'm not a good example at all.. i chose another path myself.. i deserve it.. God.. do you know when i left u, i have no confident to be a good man at all? I think i will fail as a man.. I have already done sinful stuff that people don't know.. God.. i know u're disappointed with me.. it's normal i guess.. cos people around me are disappointed with me also.. i'm disappointed with myself too.. life is meaningless.. playing all day, studying all day, quarreling all day, watching movies etc.. i just another loser...

If i were to sleep now and never to wake up again, will anyone notice it? Maybe i'm just another mist in people's life.. i'm not important at all.. i hope someone will encourage me.. now.. by my side.. a whisper also can.. i want a hug to feel appreciated.. but i guess i can never have it when i needed it the most..

Life still goes on no matter what happen..

Feverish

2008-10-02T09:46:00.005+08:00

Hmm.. just woke up and feeling slightly better from the feverish feeling yesterday.. haha.. temperature is falling fast in Busan and can reach 18°C.. haix.. i don't like cold weather..

Haha.. anyway remember on 26th Sep08 i went Gyeongju ( i.e. former capital of the kingdom of Silla ) ?? My Germany friend Thomas went on the 24th Sep and saw our very own Defense Minister of Singapore RAdm. Teo Chee Hean!! ( I only recognised him from the photo.. lol.. )Thomsa think he is an important person, so he took a picture of it and showed me on 25th Sep08. Haha.. I'm surprise to see Singaporean here too! And i'm kinda happy.. :P Hmm.. anyway i hope i will feel better on weekend because i wanna chiong again!!

2008-09-19T10:23:00.006+08:00

Thanks for chatting with me Eunice..

Hmm.. now is 2.46am ( Korean time ) already.. still haven't sleep.. don't know why i cried suddenly..

I want to learn how to love again.. Feeling dejected..

Happy 21st Birthday Eunice!

2008-09-19T10:23:00.004+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday Eunice!! Although i can't celebrate with u in Singapore, i still wish u all the best in your future endeavours!!You have been a wonderfully great sister, a fun sister and we all loves u! Tried to do something for you.. haha.. not very well done, but i hope u'll like it! May the Lord bless you with His abundant love and grace.. and best wishes to your relationship with Francis! Love u! ( including your hippo and tweety ) :P

Hanlim Dormitory

2008-09-05T00:29:00.006+08:00

This is another entry that truly express my anger.. I have no intention to insult any koreans, and i do have very good, helpful and caring korean friends. If you think you cannot take some vulgarities, please do not read. I just want to point out some systems which i think are not good.

Guess what happen in the dormitory i'm living in now? People are walking around PERSONALLY at 12am taking YOUR attendance. We must be back before 12am. If not minus 1 point. If we're not in hall the whole night, minus 2 points. If a total of 10 points are substracted, u are out of this dormitory immediately. Trust me when i said immediately. And u better not be bathing when the people are taking attendance at 12am, if not 1 points will be deducted.

Are we babies to you? This is Dong-A University, a university that is treating international students as if we are your bloody baby. What the fuck. Now i can't even have a night jog at 11.30pm, which i usually do so in NTU. And i cannot bring people of opposite sex into my room. Why can't we do all these? Do you seriously think we are going to fuck any girls that we bring into our room? Are we "desperates" to you? Are we not independent at all? And u even have 80 over camaras in this fucking small dormitory. I cannot even pee in peace. Also, why can't PNU dormitory allow guys to even visit their girlfriend in the dormitory?? Do you think i'm going to rape all the girls in the dormitory? Seriously, i feel that in their mind, guys = perverts, girls = desperates. I believe it's just a matter of time before we become perverts and desperates. Fucked up understand?

And when i'm not going to stay overnight in my dormintory, i have to apply for it on the internet??? WTF?!?!?! Who am i to Hanlim Dormitory? Prisoners?? And i cannot leave the hall from 12pm to 5pm, cos it will affect the other residents. Pissing me off. This is the kind of sucky things which i will not keep quiet. My friend even have to resort to tying up all his belts together to get the food delivery because no one can go in and out. And he throw down the money, let the delivery man tie the food delievered onto the belt before he pull up to his room. Ridiculous.

And even my germany friend, who was promised by his professor to get a single room, did not get it after much persuasion. ( Persuade what sia.. they promised you already and u still have to persuade them to keep the promise??? ) And there are tons of single guest room here untouched. Sickening attitude, especially the one in-charge. Not only this, a few incidents happened that makes me think that some people are not keeping their promises.. This is how much integrity they have. Don't make any fucking promises which you cannot keep.

Korea is indeed a nice place filled with nice scenery, but i will not hesitant to bring up fucked up stuff like this. I truly have no freedom. Even the meals timing are set. If u missed it, it's your fucking business and you go hungry.

Fuck off

Life in Korea

2008-09-01T00:25:00.003+08:00

Trying to adapt to the "Korean-style" environment..
Don't like it when sometimes, some auntie sit so close to me purposely.. makes me scared of them.. seriously find some old people's behaviour sucky though they are well-respected in Korea. No matter what they do, we should respect them and not retaliate. FAT HOPE. If you bully me, u'll be the first to be slapped by me. I'm not giving attitude, just don't touch me.
Don't really like the life here sometimes.. miss Singapore.. but thankful there are nice Korean people around me.. to help me.. without them, life would be intolerable in this foreign land..

Though i feel like going home, i can't.. i have to go though it..
Though i want to do some things, i don't dare..
When i wanted this, i got that.. and when i got that, i wanted this.. maybe i should not want anything at all..

Complicated feelings sometimes.. don't know what i want..
Now i'm having more and more free time.. to think of more things.. to miss more people.. and to entertain more lonely thoughts..
Learning to live with different people differently.. and its hard to please everyone..
Cherish life more..

So near, yet so far..
Seems within the grasp, but it's not even there..

My interesting Eunice

2008-08-25T23:30:00.006+08:00

I was having a conversation with Eunice my sister:

Joseph says:
it has been long since i last saw papa and mama.. i was wondering when i can see them online.. u at home tomorrow morning?

babychicky says:
i dont have webcam. Have work. Wont be seeing them. I draw for u their faces? haha..

Joseph says:
... u don't need webcam.. i have can already. Ok. Draw now!!!!!!!!

Joseph says:
nice..

babychicky says:
thanks!

Great sister i have..
-______________- "

Forgotten not!

2008-08-25T01:29:00.005+08:00

Dear blog,

I have not forgotten you.. right now is 2.30am in Busan and i'm feeling.. a little lonely here in my small cold room... sleeping soon though since day 3 blog is rather long..

With so much time at hand, i've been thinking.. lots of stupid things.. tired from all the early dawn and outing, but had great fun.. actually i don't know what to expect from Ms Jane tomorrow.. but i hope the buddy she's going to assign to me will be nice? I hope timetable will be out too.. will i have breakfast in hall? How much is the hall fee? When do i pay? Where are my classes? filled with lots of question marks in my mind.. but only the empty room and me..

Know i'm a let-down sometimes.. i hope i can be more understanding in future.. haiz.. things i wanna do, i can never do.. everything seems to be against me.. i hate it..

haha.. just got a link from Mr Brown show "We need you baby":
http://www.mrbrownshow.com/
Interesting..

Bali Thai

2008-08-20T01:01:00.003+08:00

hmm... Today had an outing with Jo1, Wanjing and Yu Chun! Went Suntec Bali Thai Restaurant for lunch!! Not bad leh.. we had set lunch, but the cost made us broke.. :( i can eat 13 plates of fried oysters!! Nevertheless we had quite a good time la.. just crapping as usual.. haha.. fun leh.. or at least they really didn't laugh at my cold jokes... LOL... After which i went to check out the auto-roaming services and bought another set of thermal wear! Kinda spent a bomb already.. enough for me to buy another new IBM laptop!!

haha.. anyway, thanks Jo1 for your Premium Milk Chocolate with Almond Bits! I will share it with everyone.. :)

Almost packed everything already.. Filled with anxiety and don't know what to expect. I just hope when i flew over, my family will be safe and my friends will do well in their life.. I just hope my parents are safe..

Oh ya! I have set up a new blog for my Korea trip!
http://dong-a-university.blogspot.com/
I'll post most of the pictures there.. well.. as for this blog, i'll carry on and post my thoughts here.. :)

Seeds

2008-08-19T02:27:00.005+08:00

What is the foundation of all relationships? I don't know what's mine.. maybe everything is just too good to be true.. my relationship is not all rosy afterall..

It is like a field and i'm sowing. I knew at the end of the day i will reap what i sow. Throwing all kinds of seeds into this field.. a few "trust" seed fall.. although it's growing slowly, nevertheless it is thriving well.. i wouldn't say all grow, but i believe will grow sufficiently for me to reap at the end of harvest..

Some "happiness" seeds fall, one or two eaten up by the birds, but in this field, this kind of seed sprout fast and die fast... so it does not matter if it was eaten up because it will sprout fast.. "happiness" seed don't last forever, so the farmer is thankful that it does sprout out in its lifetime..

Some "out-of-shape" seeds fell onto the field.. this kind of seed is the most pitiful, because other seeds despise it.. even the farmers who sow these seeds deem it as a futureless seed and will grow up to be a sucky plant. But this "out-of-shape" seed taste awful and the birds avoid it. It's shape allows it to tunnel deep into the soil and allow the roots to grow deep. Most importantly, it does not require lots of water to survive.. This plant will grow, but it will grow up lonely.. and forgotten maybe.. no matter how well he grow, he will never be reaped by the farmers.. because to the farmers, it is a sucky plant.. deformed..

Some "evil" seeds fell too.. it has lots of throns, and are too small to be seen.. the farmer knew these kind of seed will destroy the whole crop.. he puts in lots of patient, hard work and pain removing it.. everytime he tried to remove it, the seed will spike his hand, causing blisters on his hands..

I have thrown too many "easy-to-grow" seed.. but this kind of seed dies easily.. or maybe i didn't really sow these kind of seeds, but tried to pull them up to hasten their growth, without knowing i'm destroying what i sow..

I am not a trustworthy guy to walk through your life with...

i want to learn how to nuture a plant. I'm just not good at it..

haiz.. it's too late.. all the seeds are growing..

Busy.. and amazed..

2008-08-16T16:07:00.005+08:00

Accomplished a lot of things! Took off on Thursday and i manage to do the following:

1) Go Newton MRT Korean embassy to collect my VISA

2) Go to IRO to collect the package for Ms Jane in Dong-A Uni

3) FYP briefing conducted by Kristen

4) Take acceptance letter from YF ( thanks so much! ) and return Jess her earring

5) Had lunch with Wei Bin, YF, CCC, Yu Sheng and Jess

6) Go Yio Chu Kang and collect my laptop from Yun guang ( thanks YG! )

7) Return to Sengkang OCBC branch and enquire about my cheque

8) Change a new nets card in POSB bank

9) Went home take receipt, then proceed to bugis to exchange for the new 1G ram i bought

10) Go home, then cycled to compasspoint again to fetch someone dear to me, then accompany her home before reaching home at 12.15am

Seriously, i'm just practically travelling around Singapore on thursday. Shag out on fri.. haha.. but when i return to work ( my final day ), we gave our colleagues little sweets and surprisingly they gave me a nice Seoul book in chinese!! I've yet to read it.. and i'm going to do so for the next few days! Thanks so much.. :)

I also received free tourist map and travel guide from the Korea Tourism Organisation! Thanks!Been busy all these while.. packing mostly.. everything is more of less settled and i'll be flying on Wednesday at 8.40pm. I hope everything is alright! Was talking with my parents on saturday also.. rather troubled by some issues at work.. maybe will head bedok later and help them..

Wow.. actually i'm amazed by Michael Phelps.. truly the greatest Olympian.. i really hope he can achieve 8 gold medals. I believe he'll be remembered as one of the greatest man ever lived.

May the best man wins!

The Vitamin C story

2008-08-11T21:37:00.007+08:00

haha.. actually there is no vitamin C story. Was in Compasspoint level 2 Watson shopping for some Vit C effervescent ( from Redoxon ). Heard a lot of good effects of Vit C, including strengthening immune system and it's antioxidant effect. Without knowing that i'm a science student, a staff approached me and recommended me a tablet form of Vitamin C from Brands.

She says the following: "I recommend this to my customer because of this added selenium which can help in the uptake of vitamin C. Some of them with sinus take already feedback to me that this product is useful. Also, selenium is an antioxdiant that helps remove the free radicals in the body, improving the body functions.. etc"

Eh.. in fact i'm not impressed with what she's saying because i believe she don't know what she says. Should not be a pharmacist i believed.

1) I buy vitamin C purely for it's highly effective antioxidant effect. I doubt selenium has such good effect as vitamin C.

2) Both product contain zinc which are believe to complement it's effect with vitamin C.

3) Vitamin C is highly biodegradable ( i.e. broken down easily ). Why would i choose a slow release tablet compared to the fast-release effervescent? The fact that you recommend me the slow-release tablet already shows that you don't know the nature of vitamin C.

4) Excess intake of selenium is toxic. According to wiki, symptoms of selenosis include a garlic odor on the breath, gastrointestinal disorders, hair loss, sloughing of nails, fatigue, irritability and neurological damage.

So what if i'm lack of selenium? Simple. Eat nuts, cereals, meat, fish, eggs, crab, lobster etc.. LOBSTER?? my fav.. i guess i'm never lack of selenium.

I'm proud of my vitamin C..
because you know every intricate area of my body best and i know your nature well..

Bony shoulder?

2008-08-11T08:31:00.002+08:00

Took this picture from feng feng's blog..Was wondering if this couple was really happy? Don't the girl feel uncomfortable if the boy's shoulder is bony? Even if the boy is fit, how much cushion can his muscle give? Well.. unless the girl's face is fleshy, she would feel comfortable no matter where she put her head.. ( and i don't think i'll wear this kind of bear-bear-headed shirt.. )

They should have lie down instead.. more comfortable..

Eh.. anyway it's a cute picture.. and i felt loved too.. (^.^)

By the way, how many "hearts" can u find in the picture? i found 6! Cos one of them is on the chair..
-______________- "
Can't help being lame at times..

天真

2008-08-10T21:01:00.004+08:00

What exactly is a sacrifice? Sacrifice is something you do it in your own accord for someone at the expense of time and effort, and don't expect anything in return..

in the end?

yup.. you got nothing in return because u expect nothing in return.

Just like what someone told me, aim for the stars so that when u fail, at least u got the mountains. This is a stupid analogy because u just consoling yourself when u fail, which is not what i want. Naive.

Sometimes i hate it when people do things just for the sake of doing it, without thinking of what they are doing, and just do it because people want them to do it. Don't u have brains to think for yourself? And these people who don't know what they are doing, reprimand people who know what they are doing. This world is cuckooed.

How nice if people can live together without friction.. Perhaps that's why people always say "absence makes the heart grew fonder".. because there is no friction when that person is not around.. no friction.. no anything.. just you yourself.. you bother about yourself only.. and live for yourself..

Thinking of something... Some things happen around me and i cannot stop it from happening.. i just have to accept it.. I have no control over some matters which are important to me.. but that "matter" is not really something important to everyone. So when i say nothing and do nothing, everyone is happy..

Everyone happy can already.

What if you cannot get the things u want? Will u strive hard to get it? What if it's not the things other people want you to have it? What if it's the things other people don't want you to have it?

Don't bother then. Everyone happy can already.

Felt like meek guy.. lots of stuff i want to do in my mind, but it remains in my mind. Like a mice wanting to explore the world, yet afraid of the unknown. Like a mice wanting to break free and lead a new life, yet manipulated by the "do-this-only-because-this-is-good-for-you" attitude unknowingly.. Wanted to change the world, but who am i to change when i cannot even change myself.. the lazy me, the pervertic me, the bo-chap me, the timid me, the quarrelsome me, the weak me.

Indeed.. no matter how much i say, i'm still weak. I'm still someone who don't deserve a second blink in the eye. I'm just a calerfare.

Maybe i'm not living for myself, but i'm living to the standard of other people.

Must get use to being alone.. i believe i'll be alone most of the time for the next 4 months.. Let it be a period of time for me to think of my future and decide what is best for me..

Anyway this entry is nostalgic.. filled with a mixture of different feelings.. mixed together.. what do you get in the end?

"art"

Mini Angels

2008-08-09T14:40:00.007+08:00

Finally get to blog. My computer has gone crazy and i just could not log on. Even talking to my friends took tremendous effort, fighting with the repeated restarting.. Anyway this is just a quick update of what happen past few weeks!

Not long ago, Li Ping just graduated and went to Taiwan! Haha... and this is what she bought for me! Cute right? The two mini angels in a plastic container ever so happy.. This is really a nice gift.. Thanks Li Ping! I like it..
Haha.. and surprisingly, my mum bought some cute stuff for the 4 of us too! I think this is the sort of "in" things u can find these days... haha.. This is what she gave me!Mickey and Minnie! Initially i thought it's just an ordinary ornament, but it turn out to be something special..

Under normal condition, these creatures appear harmless and innocent: And when the night comes, when no one is looking, they starts to light up playfully!!! First with a uniform blue fluorescent...Then slowly transform to their individual special power.. Hmm... this is very colourful right? To me, they are mini chameleons!!! Oh ya.. we notice there is one special little "Zhao Cai" cat that is very "outstanding? :P My mum bought the mickey and minnie for me because i'm born in the year of a rat. Bought rabbit for Eunice because she's born in the year of rabbit. Bought pooh for Esther because she likes pooh. But why buy "Zhao Cai" cat for Joshua?? This cat glow to tell us the answer:Because Joshua likes dog. This cat will attract dogs -_____________-"

The four of us roared like crazy that night.. :P

Back to my crushed computer.. i don't know why everytime i use until halfway, this blue screen will just pop out: Finally testing my patience, i rage a war with the unknown "virus" lurking in my computer. I have decided to eliminate it by total annihilation: Rescue and Recovery. But to the "virus", it's nothing to him and he even finds it useless to type so long to me. In the end, the "virus" shorten his words to only 4 lines:
Good gracious. Now my computer crash and cannot even activate the Rescue and recovery manually, how to bring it to korea?

Finally out of fun, i took a picture with my beloved sister Esther:
Haha... lazy girl always lying down and use laptop.. Thanks for reading my blog! I just hope the korean embassy will be kind to me and allow me to apply for the VISA without the original acceptance letter from Dong-A Uni..

忍

2008-08-04T22:43:00.007+08:00

忍到忍无可忍 = 放弃
忍到忍无可忍，但还是忍 = 忍耐

How true it is. Everytime people say 忍到忍无可忍 , it is just another excuse. In broken relationships / marriages / studies / work, giving up always seems to be an easier option. In this world, who can truly persevere up till the end, believing what they always believe?

Have been working as a loanshark for exactly 5 weeks already. Getting used to calling strangers and "act busy". "Act busy" is a well known classic tranining programme in SAF and it's up to good use now. Back to work stuff, i believe there are always lessons to be learned. Some people own money still act as if they are big fuck. It does not matter how small the amount, but it's your attitude. Scold me until &!^%#^! ( words just cannot do justice to my feeling ). Some girls are particularly nice to talk to, very polite and willing to take time to explain their accounts to me ( though i don't dare imagine if "Cynthia" is a 50 year old lady or a 28 year old lady ).. Appreciate this kind of nice people around.. perhaps they know i'm in a difficult position also? No one likes to owe people money.. and no one likes to be scolded for nothing..

Seriously some people really makes me boil. Was taking the three mode of transport ( LRT, MRT, SBS ) everyday to work. Guess what. Everyday i'm "squeezed". People are so kiasu. I was already standing close to the MRT door and people just squeeze through ( between me and the door ), practically "sticking" themselves to the door, desperately wanting to grab a seat or be the first to pass through the door once it's opened to win a golden seat. What the &$*# Was trying to board a bus, a malay man was standing close to a girl.. This girl was close to me so i let her go first. When i was about to board, this guy is not giving up and definitely not gracious to let me go, keep squeezing until he almost kissed me. I stared at him as if he is the biggest pervert. Sometimes i just get upset over the behaviours of some ungracious Singaporeans. Anyway i'm so tired everyday that i just KO after 1-2 stops.

Have been thinking + stoning ( done simultaneously ) during the school holiday. No matter what i do, i can never please everyone. Some people see me only "Du Lan" already ( someone in hall ). Some people don't like the way i speak, don't like my attitude, don't like the way i do things etc. Haix.. do you really think i wanna be this kind of person? Who don't wish to receive compliment and not complains? Who don't wish to feel loved than to feel "bo chap" by people u love? Thinking again, there is no big deal also.. People are not please is not my business, cos i don't really bo chap people also. Fair.

Hmm.. i believe school has started for my friends! All the best to my friends!! We're always learning in this life journey.. and i hope everything will be fine again.. :)

Forgiveness

2008-07-30T23:24:00.003+08:00

Just some random thoughts...

How wonderful is the feeling of forgiveness. I'm just thinking if one day i did something wrong.. one grave mistake, how i crave someone will forgive me.. just by imagining it, i can feel the acceptance of me, myself already, and not only the reprimands i got from the silly things i've done. What a nice feeling is it to be given a second chance.

Maybe asking for forgiveness is not important anymore.

In real life, there won't be many second chances. Sometimes just by doing one wrong thing, thats' it. You're out. In this society, i don't expect much, not even people who are close to me to give me a second chance easily.

Haha.. who am i to complain. Life is chosen by me. Even if i'm left alone, i will rather keep the lonliness in me than to ask people to pity me and give me some of their attention. When people are all out to destroy me, by all means come. What can they do?

Maybe i've grown up. And nothing is important anymore. Staying alive is.

Hiroshima

2008-07-27T21:27:00.003+08:00

Spent my sunday watching movies online.. this is a very touching documentary i found. Comprehensive. Full of emotions after seeing this video.

http://www.moviesfoundonline.com/hiroshima.php

I hope it will never happen again.

The Pulitzer prize

2008-07-20T16:49:00.003+08:00

Went to church this morning and a pastor talked about this photo briefly:

The Pulitzer Prize Winning Photo taken by Kevin Carter in 1994 A vulture is stalking a little girl in Sudan as this girl was trying to make her way to the feeding center. At about 1km from the UN camp, she collapsed. Kevin crouched to photograph her, positioned himself for the best possible image and waited for 20 minutes, hoping the vulture would spread its wings. However it did not. After he took his photographs, he chased the vulture away and left the girl to struggle alone in fear of contracting a disease.

He won the Pullitzer Prize in 1994 for feature photography, but committed suicide on the same year, burdened with guilt and sadness.

I'm not trying to reprimand him, despise him or judge him. When i tried to search for information about this issue, the impression most people gave was as if Kevin was inhumane, another "vulture" in disguise, money slave, someone who exchanged his soul for a prize winning photo, sickening etc.

Why do we all just sit back, look at the photo and shake our heads? Is it really the fact that someone took the photo that upsets us, or is it the fact that the photo was there taken that upsets us? Who are we to judge that photographer when we are not even on ground zero, but sitting comfortably behind the screen watching all the suffering happened? Please. The girl is still alive. If you really think Kevin is the biggest sinner on earth, why can't you forgive him and love him in return? Why fault him alone when people around the world are talking different photos of people suffering?

I'm not supportive of his action definitely, and my heart pour out for that little girl. But i'm not supportive, nor joining those accusers as well.

Don't be a bloody hypocrite and say you love the unseen God when you yourself cannot even love the sinners around you.

Pooh

2008-07-19T11:31:00.010+08:00

Lack of updates these few days. My laptop internal fan was damage and i cannot even switch on the com! Sent it for repair at the IBM servicing centre. Check only also need $50. Replace one fan need $127!!! Servicing fee? A whooping $100. Battery is the worst. Replacement of one battery cost $300!!!! *GLUP*. IBM is all out for your money after your warranty. Watch out. Anyway i repaired the fan and got back my laptop yesterday.

One boring evening, i had nothing to do. Took a pooh bear ( for hug hug one ) for a camara shot:
( Close up shot ) Strangled shot ( still smiling sia )
Flying shot.. or should i say, act cute shot. Haha.. i'm amazed that pooh actually cooperate with me.
Looking out my window, arh... took this nice picture with the LRT line just below. I like the colour of the distant flat that is under construction.Find this view beautiful, but something spoils it!! Let me take you to a closer look:yes... if you notice at the top left hand corner, someone is negligent in simple task.. don't really like this kind of view. Put Singapore flag also don't know how to put ar. Although this country still didn't give me the chance to watch the actual parade ( which i don't like ), i still don't like to see imperfection when it could be perfected. Reminds me of the perfect cut show at 10pm everyday. Good show!

Oh ya.. by the way, anyone know how Hui Jun looks like? :P Haha.. yup! Hui Jun is the middle girl eating the noodles.. this picture is taken when Huifen treated us pizza hut on her own birthday! Thanks for your blueberry cheese cake Huifen! It tastes very nice.. Two more pictures showing what my maid prepared for my dinner which i think are very nice too!

haha.. a typical western food! and on another occasion, bee hoon + herbal soup!
Oh ya.. i had a variety of Delifrance breakfast one morning i can choose from!
Seriously, the Raspberry Butter Cake Slice is superb. One slice + a cup of tea-o is enough. Filling! Perhaps is due to the sweet buttery taste and the rich raspberry smell that makes it memorable. I certainly recommend it to all of you!

Working life still sucks, but i'm coping better and better each day. On my way to work, i notice this building. Make a guess why i took this picture?

yey... if u are observant, the logo for the DKSH company resembles the tree just below it.. how very creative of them to think of such logo... -____-" When i walked into my company, i notice another thing pasted on one of the cupboard:
This message funny sounds funny. Shouldn't it be " Please close after use"?? Although my English is not that "powderful", but i still finds it funny to read it this way.. haha.. sometimes it does not take much to make simple life interesting.. just be a little observant and u'll notice this sort of unexpected things around you.. :)

Hmm.. went to have dinner at my parents workplace yesterday. Thanks so much for treating me with very very delicious food! Fried oyster, prawn mee, sizzling chilli-flavoured fish, sugar cane juice and satay!! Yummy! Thanks so much for willing to lend me your car too.. i appreciate it!

Indeed, blogging is letting people know how u're feeling and introducing people to your inner life. People don't like it, but to me, i feel that there is nothing to hide. Maybe i'll stop blogging one day? When i feel lost of hope? haha.. let's hope this day will not come. Right now, i want to let the world know that i'm very pleased with my life although i still quarrel with people. Happy that some people still loves me like my parents and some of my friends.. that's enough le. In a month time, i will be flying to korea already. Hope all of you will be fine and healthy.. especially my parents.

Pretty and Ugly

2008-07-13T23:32:00.004+08:00

People nowadays always say they rather choose someone with a good heart than someone with good looks. Excuses. I dispise this kind of people. Who are they to judge? Discriminating against people who looks nice? Are they trying to imply that those who look good have a bad heart? Or are they just eating sour grapes since they cannot be with pretty people? Is it fair to those who looks good? Don't tell me good looks are not important you impotent. In the society, people look at looks. Face up the reality. And people who are fat and ugly does not mean they have a good heart either, though they can be capable.

These days i think those who do not have good looks can have an ugly heart as well. I've seen lots of them. Think highly of themselves as if they really have a golden heart. For those of you who think you are ugly, please don't automatically think u have a good heart. An example is me, since i typed this entry, i must have a black heart. It does not matter to me anyway. My heart cannot feel a lot of things these days. Unreceptive already. I don't even know why i'm typing this entry when i'm thinking of other things... lol... this thought just hit me and i just typed it. Anyway have a happy day.

Rage ( R21 entry )

2008-07-08T22:14:00.004+08:00

Worked in the company for 7 days already.. Finally get to know the tradition of the company.. or at least, there are 6 lessons the boss wants to teach me:

1) Kindly fuck off the company on the dot after office hours. We don't want you to do OT unnecessarily cos we don't want to pay you more. Not even a single cent you greedy pig.

2) Don't do your things so fast. We don't like it. If not we will let you shred papers to waste time.

3) Don't be proactive cos you are always wrong. Be a puppet. I ask you to go eat, you must go eat. If you go shit i will fuck you also. I want you to call the customer once to ask for money. Don't bloody act smart and call two times understand? If not i fuck you.

4) No complains from the customer. Let them fuck you whatever they like, if not i will fuck you.

5) Don't come too early also. Either be on the dot or be late. If not i will ask why you come so early to work. Who knows i may fuck you as well for coming early you money sucker.

6) As a new bird, even the most useless bird in the company can fuck you. Even if the useless bird cannot fuck you, it will suck up to the older birds to fuck you. Be polite to the useless bird also, if not get ready to get fuck.

Believe it or not, anyone at anytime from any place can scold me as if i'm a dirt.

I finally know what to do in the company. Get fucked.

Working~

2008-07-05T14:56:00.003+08:00

Finally during this holiday, i get to work for 1.5 month. The highest i earned for a part time job is $830 only! Hopefully i will earn more this time... Oh ya.. Went out last weekend and had a nice dinner at long john silver!In fact nowadays i had not much time to go out because of work... something like 9 to 5 kind of job. ( Anyway i'm lazy to go out too ) Hmm... know what i'm doing? I'm a "loanshark" in the company, calling people to pay up money. Well i kinda like the job as i'm constantly in contact with people. Haha... then one morning my mum bought me Mee Siam from punggol park KPT! Don't really like spicy stuff in the morning, but i still ate it greedily.
After eating 90% of the "essence" i noticed the scientist-all-time-favourite pet: "the drosophilla" inside my mee siam. *Faint*.
Guess what. I poke the fly with my fork and lifted it up to the visible area on the plate. After which i use the same fork, poke the egg and ate it. *SIAN DIAO*

Don't know why i do such stupid act, but nonetheless, the essence of this fly is in me now.

None

2008-07-02T22:03:00.005+08:00

felt like nobody.. felt abandoned..

Finally over

2008-06-27T16:37:00.003+08:00

Finally. Manage to come online and have some time to blog. Thanksgiving first! Haha.. i passed my korean languange!!! WAHAHAHA!! The result is surprising cos i wrote rubbish. Next, my status for relief teaching was approved ( though i didn't intend to teach ).. lol... and i passed my ippt.. :)

SAF is seriously an inefficient organisation. In fact i don't know why i'm there in the first place. Check in fast, check out bloody slow. Wait and wait for fuck? Don't you all know that the battalion is booking out together? Simple things also cock up. Fucking inefficient. No washing machine to wash our clothes also. U seriously think we are NSF ar? If you don't like to bath it's your business. We are done with our liabilities and who do you think you are? Where do we stay? The 6th level. Everyday have to climb at least 24 stories. Shit you. Allow us to book out for only 3 hours. Drag and drag, how to go home? Fucker never think in our shoes. Back gate timing also not given to us, have walk bloody long to the front gate and sweat. I find myself like a bloody slave. Or should i say cheap labour. Call me back for training while i'm a student and pay me peanuts. Smart ass you fucker. Call me back to slack 70% of my time. Since i'm at the lowest rung in the army, anyone higher rank than me ask me do what i must do. Maid ar? So many fucked up lazy sergeants. Fuck all regulars and everyone in it.

Reservist is indeed a stupid event. It is like entertaining ourselves. Ask us go back camp, make ourselves busy, ask us clear up the mess we made and then fuck home ourselves. Food are fucked up as well. Everything about this organisation just sucks to the core. Last but not the least, fuck you SAF.

Love?

2008-06-15T01:44:00.004+08:00

hmm... have been thinking lately.. how do you know a person really loves u? or what should you do to show that u really love that person?

Honesty? Gifts? Time? Words of encouragement? Intimacy? or sacrificial love? ( does sacrificial love means be his/her "slave" no matter the other person loves u or not? ) I don't think so ba.. I have a feeling that i'm not loving the right way..

Different people reacts differently... perception of love is very different also... this will be a very short entry before i go for reservist.. hope i will get some comments after i come back 2 weeks later?

Feeling guilty

2008-06-12T01:06:00.003+08:00

Have been spending a lot these days. i know i did. Should start to save..

Have been joking too much these days too..

Have you ever felt lonely even when there are people around u? Not that i am, but i'm just thinking.. Been requesting too much from people when me myself is not any better.. yup.. requesting too much le.. perhaps when i don't bother, things turns out better. When i bother too much, i'm just irritating.. this situation is normal for me..

Perhaps i'm sick...아프다 again..

Random thoughts...

2008-06-09T01:02:00.011+08:00

hmm... feels good after a run! haha.. tried to run 4km within 25 minutes.. whoa.. seriously... i pant like i never pant before... wanna get a pass for my ippt, but at the expense of my exam 2 days later??? *alamak* Actually i have nothing to blog about.. but i guess i should be thankful! In fact, there is nothing interesting in my life, and there are nothing in my mind now, but i guess i can at least type something for my dearest blog?

Haven't been meeting up my friends for the past one month.. Just busy going for my korean lesson, surfing net, running, eating and sleeping... opps! Forget to touch my piano for months... this reminds me of someone in the tv who said " to him, music is his life ".. apparently music is not really my life.

I'm just thinking i should be doing something in my life.. but what can i do? It has been long since i last worked for my own pocket money.. guess i'm not really that independent.. but 24 years old already still not independent? Haix.. i'm still thinking of buying a camara and a skype phone in the upcoming IT fair for my korea trip + a camaraless phone for my reservist .. extravagent i think. Talking about reservist makes me mad again.. I'm having holiday May, June, July.. this stupid reservist falls in June, which is in between. Seriously, other than taking intersem, what can i do? I wanna work, but it seems some "stupid event" is dashing all my plans..

haha.. thankful that i'm still healthy at this moment.. but.. i think there are some acute pain in my heart not long ago.. after i eat the butter prawns.. :P hmm.. i thought there are no pain fibres in the heart? was thinking perhaps my coronary arteries was blocked for a moment... artherosclerosis ba.. or spasms? yaya.. all the increase upload shit, decrease blood flow to my heart tissues come to my mind.. i can imagine that image in my mind.. but i'm still thankful that i'm fine now.. haha..

Seriously, i don't know why people wanna go back and work for free in the lab as "attachment". This attachment is unnecessary and people are willing to do it for free. Is this the culture that NTU SBS is going to have? I know it's competitive there, people wanna socialize and know the professor and lab tech first.. wanna get hands on experience before the actual fyp. Is it necessary? U mean if we don't do all these ( for free btw ), we will do badly in fyp? Or people will just leave us to die there? ( don't think so ba ) This is the kind of thing that makes the system shity.. but apparently, people do like the feeling of having an "advantage" over fellow students although they are not paid.. perception problem.. for me, i think it's a waste of time.. no money talk about passion ar? Let's see how long will they carry on without being paid.. 3 months? 6 months? Sorry ar.. this is a realistic society.. the bottom line is: get paid at least. From the considerable amount in the payslip of the professor ( grants also can ), is it so tough for them to siphon out $300 for the students working for them? Even biopolis paid their intern people around $600 per month. You all can bloody buy a machines that cost millions and have no money for students working on those machines. Perhaps this is also the reason why science phd graduates are paid peanuts in well-known organizations ( i shall not name ) compared to business students. To me, passion worth zero if u have no money. Why not let's reciprocate the situation: how many professors are willing to work for free? think..

Wanna talk about girlfriend.. the feeling of dating is really nice.. especially in the beginning where people normally say it's the "honeymoon period".. everything about her is perfect... as time flies, as u get to know that person more and more, things are more "routine" already. Actually i kinda like "routine" stuff.. makes me feel secure and happy when everything goes well. Of course there are a lot of times where couples argued.. this is not surprising at all.. different people tackle the problem differently, but i would first keep quiet to avoid further anger. It does not mean i'm weak or useless cos it's not so easy to exercise this kind of self-control.. but no matter what, i will tell her that truthfully how i feel in the end and hope she'll understand.. I wouldn't say i'm expert in love, but i guess love is not just the wonderfully sweet part, but a mixed of sweet and bitter to make it complete. Most importantly, this love must be sacrificial in nature.. ( hmm.. sounds grand leh.. ) hard la.. everyday is a learning process..

Let me end off this entry with this:

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. ... And now these three remains: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. 1Corinthians 13:4-8, 13

I'm surprised i'm so long-winded..

Friend's Test

2008-06-07T02:32:00.005+08:00

Lol... out of boredom, i set up a "Friend's Test" in my blog... well.. can try when u're free? :P well I must agree that it's a little stupid..

Haha.. ok la.. Hui Jun mei mei is the cutest k! Don't be so playful ar.. must study hard too!

Sian.. notti Eunice scratch me until i have 5 scratch marks + one mark with blood. This is incorrigible!! Next time must cut off all her nails.. play also don't know how to play... now i'm suffering in pain.. *ouch*

Exam results out!

2008-06-05T09:24:00.001+08:00

Yesterday had a nice family day! Hmm... went out in the afternoon with my parents for lunch and held a farewell dinner for one of their fellow colleague ( *sian*.. cost us $700 ).. After that we had mahjong session again! It's our family's all times favourite.. but i lost $20++ dollars to my brother Joshua.. *double sian*

yup... and exam results are out yesterday! Didn't do well in some subjects.. but surprisingly, this is one of the best results i've obtained in ntu so far.. :P for those who didn't do well, i hope u will not feel discourage... life is not dependable on a cert only.. work hard again!

Oil

2008-06-03T11:49:00.005+08:00

After reading the news for the past few days about Malaysia's strategy to cut fuel subsidies, i can see your attitude against Singaporeans ( who knows may include the Thai ). From Singapore you draw a radius of 50km and say no oil should be sold to foreign cars. This is really a bloody beat around the bush. What foreign cars are you referring to when u're drawing the 50km radius from Singapore itself?

You seriously think u don't need foreigners to support your economy is it? After implementing the LAW ( the strategy has become a law.. can enforce already.. ), your own people that depends mainly on the thai cars protested. There are so many ways to tackle a problem and is this the best strategy you can think of? Cannot sell oil? You yourself is a net exporter of oil leh.. what joke is this. If u want to sell subsidize oil to your own people only, there are other ways. I know you pay a hefty fuel subsidy of US$14 billion based on the oil price of US$120 per barrel.. so? Because of this, you stop selling your precious oil to OTHER people who needs it near the borders, causing cars to stall. When Singapore implemented the 3/4 tank full before going into malaysia, you critisize as if we block your fortune road. Seriously, review your own attitude and don't give me that kind of smart-alec and big-brother-always-right kind of thinking. As a result of your action, you impacted your own tourism, economy and trust of your own people at the expense oil. I feel that u need more wisdom to make more wise choices.

No hard feeling on my malaysian friends.

Old people these days

2008-06-03T00:32:00.016+08:00

This is an add-on from the previous post:

Seriously.. 最近的老人狗眼看人低..

U bloody think you old i scared u ar. Was standing on the right side of the escalator ( because i believe i can stabilize myself better using my right hand than my left hand ) in sengkang mrt today before going for my korean lesson. An old man diao me and walk pass me. I know i'm standing at the non-SMRT-left-side. So what. Your attitude makes me sick. After he reached the MRT platform, he stared at me all the way until i reached the platform. Of course i stared back at him.. you know what? That bloody old man want to fight with me and started to walk towards me.

In the end, i siam him and walk opposite direction. Cannot even catch up with me still want to fight with me. 最近的老人狗眼看人低.. If you want people to respect you, you better respect people first. I'm not going to curse you or what ( because it's not in my tradition to do so ), but i believe people will meet their own kind. So do i. I'm an angel..

in disguise..

Tired day

2008-06-02T21:27:00.011+08:00

Seriously.. after seeing so many things around me, SAF still sucks to the core. Not just the organisation, but a lot of people in it. In fact I don’t see highly of the people in it. People who fucking don't deserve a job and some may even be a society-useless-bug can be found in it ( not talking about NSF of course ). As a result of "secrecy of information" and regimental system, inside is fucked up. This includes fucked up boyfriends in it too. I can tell u that i heard of some guys molested by hunky gay sergeants, but unable to voice out anything. “Secrecy of information” is really regimental indeed. Loyalty to country yes. Loyalty to SAF? *shurg*.. two words just float strongly in my mind.. it's none other than "下贱".. well i have no objection if u love this organisation.. but if u love it, u should seriously join it...

Was chatting with Ariyo today and wanted to voice out something in my blog.. Believe it or not, woman can get rich just by marrying and divorcing.. Especially in Singapore, marriage is really not advantages to Singaporean guys when a marriage goes down the drain. I seriously don't know why the presence of alimony when people are shouting out loud “equality!!” in this society ( + the rising of women rights ) and women are getting more independent.

Another thing is that the extension of MRT + circle line etc. What is the use when thousands of people are taking a 179 bus to NTU? Why not just spend a little money and build an extension to NTU or NUS to greatly aid the crowd control in Boon Lay and Clementi.. Instead only the Tuas people got the comfort..

No hard feeling on anyone.. Not happy then comment on your own blog and leave mine alone.. Getting back results on thurs and hope i will maintain my grades...

Korean Language Sucks

2008-05-29T23:10:00.011+08:00

Basically the title is what i'm feeling now... Korean language sucks... i'm so mad... this is the first time i got 0/20 for my korean test. ( or should i say, 0 marks for my entire life since i got 1/10 in my primary school spelling + cheating ) Not only that. Up till now, i flunk ALL the korean test. One minor stroke makes the whole sentence wrong. F. Initially got the passion to learn it since i'm going korea, but thinking of it now, this sickening subject really makes me sick.

Or just blame it on me. I'm stupid.

+ computer keep dumping physical memory and restarting ( in another word, it sucks too )
+ today waited so long to board bus ( bad luck )
+ exam in 2 weeks time ( not feeling optimistic from all the failing )

NVM. At least something happen that brighten up my day.. a bird came knocking at my window while i'm still sleeping.. thanks for the morning call birdy.. i can see that u're concentrating...This bird is amazing... it allows me to take photos at very near view! ( i have a feeling this bird loves me )Enjoying the wonderful view with the Sengkang LRT and flats + watching the handsome me...U seems black enough... Or are u the one that bring me bad luck??? *faint* yaya.. blame on birds are the best... Sorry Peter Poon.. i'm not a bird watcher..

Joseph the Dreamer

2008-05-27T18:56:00.002+08:00

was revising my irritating korean when i fell asleep... dreamt something..

I am in another building.. basement was something like Nanyang Audi... came down using an escalator and was shopping when an angry women was trying to fight with my love one.. in the end, i was furious and fought with her.. in another moment, i was floating on the sea... tried to see if the sea was dangerous and place my army towel slightly on the surface on the surface of the sea.. amazingly, i used much force to pull up my towel...

Looked across the sea and saw a kingdom. It was a big kingdom that seems victorious... however an event seems to be happening... they are proudly showing off all their victories trophies and strong armies as they entered into a fortress with their horses.. curious, i entered with them... suddenly the huge door closed. Then we realized that we are trap! We tried to shout and escape but to no avail. I tried to look out, but saw really huge giants coming out from the sea killing the rest of the people. One of the giant peak into the fortress and tried to smell if there are people in it, but a baby in front hindered the giant from smelling us.. and the fortress did shook a few times..

time pass and we are safe.. discovered a secret underground tunnel that was really tight in space.. and freedom once again come to us..

It reminds me of the ends of days... don't know why i have this kind of vivid dreams... i still remember a dream that i have when i'm young.. i was in my old flat.. late at night... i dreamt suddenly that there are lots of devil and satan around me... they are crawling towards me and trying to grab me and send me to hell.. i climbed on top of the glass table.. and just as they are about to catch me, someone pulled me up. It was an angel... i looked down and saw that the devil cannot do anything but to look on...

Ya.. dream a lot these days... sian..

Steamboat

2008-05-24T19:03:00.005+08:00

Had a steamboat yesterday with Li Shi, Karen, June, Huilin, Jie Hui, Russell and Zhi Hui at Chinatown.. hmm... not very fresh actually, but i guess it's the company that matters! Chit chat all the way... next we had mahjong session at my house exclusively before i drove my friends back home. Kinda enjoy the mahjong the most! So thankful my parents bought some food home for us too... (^.^) Started to drive some of them back at 3.40am, i manage to reach home by 520am... ( yay.. good morning dear Joseph.. ) anyway manage to drive the last person back home in Bukit Batok before i got lost myself in the expressway.. heng not much vehicle.. if not their parents will not spare me easily for bring them home late! Sped all the way, but i think i sped by a speed capturing device at Bukit Batok... *sian diao*

Hai... woke up late today.. Just by doing the korean homework took me 4 hours already ( and still doing ). How am i going to survive? All alone at home... been thinking a lot.. and have been restless sitting while trying to finish the homework. Lucky i manage to cheat a little in writing the korean essay, if not i sure cannot finish after 10 hours.. Haix... is this what my life is all about? Play, eat, study, sleep... where is my motivation factor? Perhaps life is just too good... I must learn not to be contented easily...

나는 아프다

2008-05-19T14:38:00.008+08:00

Felt sick these days... Initially had a severe sore throat and down with a mild fever.. now having ulcer in funny places too.. somewhere deep in the gums between my two sets of teeth.. nvm... to complicated also.. its affecting my nerve so much that every bite i took makes me "high"... not only that.. i cannot even open my mouth more than 2.2cm, if not my cheek will feel pain! Just now had a severe stomachache until i feel like vomiting with slight giddy.. not that kind of wanna shit kind of stomachache k! ( i'm a boy also.. not a gal.. certainly not PMS kinda of vomiting.. ) Felt better after a while... sian.. so weak..

Is there problem with my body? I don't know.. i hope i still have a long way to go before i rest in peace.. ( by the way, the above title means "I am sick"... )

Really hope to pass my korean language course! So tough for me.. I don't even understand the question, how to answer during exams? *sian diao*.. and the teacher want us to do the workbook filled with korean.. i don't even understand the questions, how to do sia? *faint* Lucky i have a "private tutor" constantly helping me! Phew.. but it won't last long cos support is limited.. -_-"

Complains

2008-05-14T13:55:00.007+08:00

Hmm... today is wednesday and i think i have a few unimportant things to address. I must agree that i love to complain and voice out my opinion although it may not be pleasant to hear.

Was on the train to school when two aunty boarded the train. At first that sat separately as there are not enough seats. Finally when they got to sit together, one of the aunty said: "SMRT should have build more seats... blah blah.." In fact many people hear already treat them as transparent. But for me, i feel like saying to them that if they are so smart, why don't the two aunty join SMRT and contribute their noble ideas? I really wonder how they can make their idle speech a more practical one. No doubt there are room for improvement, but it does not make both of you seem smarter indeed.

As there are time to kill, i wanted to go Nanyang Business School and use their "free access lab". Seriously, this lab is not really that "free access". Went in and tried to log in their computer and guess what? Only NBS students can log in. WTF. Why not just name it "NBS-students-only-lab". I don't know why, but NBS the building itself is really that idiotic and unfriendly. Even an NTU student also cannot use their com. Fancy all the complain from all over NTU when SBS people got their own "restricted access lab and room", where any students ( not necessary SBS students ) can log in once they gain entry to the rooms. Jealous and egoistic, students just want to infiltrate and gain access into, as if they have "conqured" the SBS building, empowered the system and landed into a land of golden eggs without the access card. Big Deal.

Since i can't log on to the "free access lab", i went directly up 1st level in S1 block and use the lab. Tried to open a word document from edventure also got problem. System sucks these days. Then what is the used of pasting a nice sticker on the top right hand corner of the computer that says "Microsoft Office 2007" ?? What a great place to be in, frozen by the strong air-con simultaneously.

What's more. Tried to request for a business intersem subject 3 weeks ago. Find the office like hell also cannot find. Where is it? It is hiding... hiding quietly just beside the com lab. CMI. When i approach the staff, disorientated and sweating like mad under the hot day just before a paper, an old malay staff gave me a sickening attitude and tell me they cannot do anything because it is the student academic office ( SAO ) who is in-charge of this kind of thing. This is super unlike the feeling NBS gave me 1 sem ago, when a nice lady have empowerment over subjects for intersem and tried her best to assign subjects to us. In the end, after "climbing up the mountain" to SAO, they gave another subject to me, saying that's the best because the subject i like is "packed to the maximum". My friends who are busy studying for exams?? They got the "packed to the maximum" subjects just by emailing SAO. Thanks ar.

No hard feeling, but this is what i've been observing around me.

Happy Mother's Day!

2008-05-12T09:42:00.007+08:00

Today is Mother's day! Let me recap what happen:

Went to church today.. Hui Jun mei mei actually sat with me by herself!!! haha... she always surprised me~ Felt very very tired and i actually slept during the sermon! Sian... before going home, we roam around in bedok and admire beautiful houses on our way..

Bringing our mum along, we had our lunch in a hawker centre in East Coast Park. Cannot make it... there is a very famous Wan ton mee there and 80% of my family members ate it. Not bad... my mum, on the other hand, ate laksa ( the stall just beside the Wan ton mee stall ) instead. Seriously, this is the worse laksa we have ever tasted. Weather hot doesn't matter, the cockles not cooked, gravy so thick and last but not least, it is COLD. Sian.. what a "memorable mother's day".. ate with disgust..

Went shopping with my family in carrefour and ended up in Bedok for a relative gathering. My mum don't like this kind of gathering, and i accompanied her to a nearby NTUC for a while before returning back.. When my mum was selecting some wine, she turned and a woman was so close to her that my mum accidentally knocked onto her. It's ok... the woman was still talking on the phone, clutching her waist as if she have a stitch.. then she said this:

"hey.. i'm ok.. a stupid women knocked onto me.."

I was fumingly mad. How dare you say my mum stupid!! Who the F*** you think you are? Even as a university student, i never look down on people. Judging from your ill-mannered speech, i can see that your mum didn't really teach you properly, or could she have died? Must be a F***ing bastard. While that bastard woman continue to select her wine, i stared at her and said aloud that i Du Lan someone. So what if your husband is a hunk, i will fight all out for something i believe in although i know i won't win you physically. Your sick mind must be joking... scolding my mum during mother's day. Wake up your idea understand? F***ed up. God is fair afterall.. when He gave your husband brawn, He did not give you a brain. This typical example i have seen a lot seriously. Want to scold someone, don't do it in front of that person and expect that stranger to love your "wonderful" comment.

Because of this incident, my mum are more soft-hearted and went back to the dinner! Haha... had a relatively enjoyable dinner, celebrated my Grandpa birthday before playing mahjong until 4am in the morning with both parents, Joshua and Esther.. Everything ended well actually.. (^.^) Once again, happy mother's day! I love you mum!

Busy Wednesday~

2008-05-08T22:20:00.006+08:00

Hie friends! Wednesday is a busy day for me! Tried to settle the tender stuff and wanna extend my passport... Oh no... now then i realised that the passport are changing to the new biomatrix ones! So "poof" i go with my dearest sister!

Took a picture with Esther on the train!Wow... the ICA is really crowded on wednesday afternoon! Lucky i siam the que by saying i need to apply visa soon.. haha.. ended up in an "interview room" with an officer and they say they'll try to make mine asap... hmm... after that went to bugis to shop around.. in the end, i got a little mad.. lol...See the above bridal display by Sookee? I was on that level wanting to take a picture of the beautiful bridal costume, in the end kanna stop by one of the sookee people. They scared i "steal" their ideas! @!#$%&#@! Who care your shity idea. I say i wanna take means i wanna take. Though i only like the purple one, i wanna take the white one also ( from 2nd level ) :You thought you very big ar.. Big then go marry la! Stop me sia... Next time i'm gonna take your bridal costume with an 8 magapixel camara. Actually i know i'm a little "uncontrollable".. lol... but who cares.. anyway i shopped a while with Esther before going jogging... haha... had a nice day afterall... ( Sookee sucks ) =P

SBS Poster Day!~

2008-05-06T22:42:00.006+08:00

Haha.. this is my first time attending the poster day ( after my pre-departure gathering ) for the year 4 student! :)

Not bad... i find some posters very very very appealing! Can't take a photo of all of them, so just took a few that i think i like.. haha... sorry for the rest! Anyway here are the posters:

This picture is badly taken... but take it because Champ is inside.. haha.. ( seems proud of his work! )

Seriously, i think all the developmental biology posters are superly done with nice "graphic"! See the last one? The backbone with fluorescence + good resolution... wow... *impressed* Surprising, they don't win the poster competition... lol... Perhaps it's because it is no longer the professor who determine the winners, but the student's who are suppose to vote... Prof Peter is so mean! He draw on one of the graduate's poster... sian diao... anyway i don't have the picture of the poster that won the poster competition ( cos i think i don't like it ) ... haha... :P

Jia En and Huifen's Wedding

2008-05-04T20:19:00.007+08:00

Finally someone from our church rang the wedding bell! Congratulations to Jia en and Huifen! Well.. they are very nice people truly... growing up with them has been a real blessing. I remember when i was having my toughest days in army, Jiaen is the one who encouraged me the most. He is a very funny guy actually.. haha... and as for huifen, her intelligence will surprise u! She's a high "C" person and is very neat in all the things she do.. haha..

This are the two coordinators and the wedded couples! Oh ya.. this is taken inside my church.. lol...The cute wedding car!Thanks so much for the wonderful lunch buffet both of you provided! As a lunch coordinator, i have the luxury to take all the first hand picture of the food!

Mum's Butter Prawn Homemade Chicken / Mutton Satay
Black Pepper Chicken Cutlet
Mum's Thai Pineapple Rice ( decorated with raisins!! )

Broccoli, Caulflower, Carrot & Mushroom
Oven Backed Penne Pasta with Cheese
Tempura Prawn Ball with Salad Cream
Crispy Fish Fritter with Lemongrass and Cilantro Sauce
Cocktail Crudites: Celery, Cucumber and Carrot stick & Torilla Chip ( as illustrated here! ) with Tangy Salsa SauceChocolate Eclair

Mini Profiteroles with Icing... nice!! Inside is a very sweet cream... hmmmm..... wonderful...
Mini Fresh Fruit Tarlet~
Deluxe Japanses Sushi Platter
The decoration of the VIP table by the caterer themselves... seems high class don't they?
A closer look at the layout:

Oh ya... they're leaving for Vienna, Switzerland and Italy for their honeymoon... so nice and sweet!!!!! All the best and have a memorable trip!! Actually there are a lot of pictures of the dinner in the hotel ballroom, but i'll update it again soon! Do scrolll down often! The dinner is the most enjoying part... Anyway i'll be having my intersem again.. haha... hope everything will be fine!

Exam Over!!

2008-04-30T01:05:00.007+08:00

Finally, my year 3 sem 2 exams are over!! Exhilarated!! For the past few weeks, i'm like a zombie: wake up, eat, study, sleep. I'm still very thankful that everything happened. These are the days that i'll remember.. the fond memories and time spent studying together.. Hmm... thanks bin bin and Jie Hui for your msg and well-wishes! (^.^)

Actually i find the papers not really that tough, especially for TCM. No regrets for choosing it definitely. On the other hand, i don't hold high hopes for HRM and Functional Genomics and Proteomics. As for pharmacology, its do-able and i'm surprise i can roughly answer 65% of the paper! Perhaps i don't have high standard for myself... just wanted a boderline second upper... haha... I'm simply just glad that all these are over.

For the next 3 days, i'll be busy involved in my church friend wedding! Haha... Congratulation Jia En and Huifen!! May God bless both of you, and may your marriage be a blessing to others too!

Repentance

2008-04-24T10:28:00.006+08:00

This email is for my friends who cared for me... or at least in reply to my friends to text me...

Thanks Huiting for your care, concern and encouragement! It has been such a long time since we contact and you still cared. I believe u will be a very good teacher ( just like JZ )! Hope u'll do well in your exams and in your life too!

Thanks Kian Hong for always willing to be there. Thanks for being an understanding roomie and u're always that friendly and helpful. haha... Thanks! It has been really nice to know HT and KH in hall... must keep in contact!

Thanks Wei bin for being a good and understanding friend too... haha... i find you easy to chat with and really enjoyed your presence in school!

Oh ya.. really sorry for hurting C3. Most importantly, u're willing to forgive me with a big heart. Thanks... i won't do it again... I'm still the same old Joseph you know before... :)

Moon moon moon... hope u'll come back safely! Must buy presents for me k...

Sometimes life lesson have to be learned through a hard way. No doubt i'm deeply hurt, but from it, i learn to be better... So thankful to God for placing so many good friends ( and you ) in my life. Myabe because of it, i'll become a better guy.. Take care and strive hard for the last 2 papers!

Exam Blues

2008-04-05T11:15:00.005+08:00

Trying to relieve myself from the studies... coming online again! haix... feeling sinful...
Posted two cartoons found online! Hmm... liked the first one.. haha... i'm something like the blue "stick man" now...Kinda like the F.I.R. song " 爱的力量"... haha... hope it does help my friends who are reading my blog to detress!
Though i'm not prepared, but i'm feeling great at this moment of time... (^.^)

Activation

2008-03-30T13:04:00.009+08:00

Yayaya... yesterday got army activation and i'm involved. Filled with frustration and anger actually. My friend lionel got arm dislocation, got MC after the surgery, still cannot be exempted from the recall all because of a stupid officer who say he better go report ( without his stuff of course). Big F***.

On this bloody hot day, i'm activated. Prepared everything, rush there sweating like mad from sengkang, then all they want me to do is to wait in a stupidly dirty area. For what sia? Other people check le can go, mine check le still want us to wait. I know you all are there the whole day, very sian, but that does not mean you can waste my time. You all can claim all the money you want, since i'm a student only and have to be involved in this F*** shit thing. Humans are smart creatures. If you want me to wait, i make sure i'm the last one to report the next time.

You know why you all are officers and i'm only a corporal? You are well-regarded by SAF as capable with leadership. You be garang yourself, and leave me alone since i'm only a corporal. I am worthless understand? That is why u only want me to be a corporal in the first place. And why appoint me as the one in-charge of calling the other people? I have already fulfilled my duty as an NSF. Now i am an NS men. If you want me to do something, give me clear instruction and don't tell me last minute what i didn't do after i'm activated and expect me to do all the F*** shit thing right the first time.

After eveything is done, still want me to report to a super BO CHAP fatty sergeant. Entered the room, everyone just look at me and stare as if they are idiots. The "capable" officers are nowhere to be seen. Disgusted. Then i have scan name tag on their uniform to find a "Tan" before asking him what he want. Expect me to produce something which i didn't even bring. So what you want next since i don't have the things? Nothing right? Nothing still didn't tell me so that i can F*** off from that stupid place.

A simple thing also cannot do properly and efficiently. But this kind of inefficiency, idiotic, incapable, sucky things cannot even be blogged and publicized. Why? Because everything in SAF is "top secret". Anything F*** up also cannot say. No wonder it remains F**** up.

( btw to all people, i'm not as innocent as what you think. If you think F***ing around means i'm a bad guy, so be it. I don't live by your face. If i'm really your friend, you should accept me as who i am. It does not mean those who appear good and harmless on the outside are angels and those who scold vulgaries are devil. I'm merely expressing what i'm thinking. Though it is so un-christian, it is still me. Don't believe in christianity loh, as if i care whether you go heaven or hell. I represent a fallen christian. A typical example. )

Lecture Marathon

2008-03-28T21:11:00.004+08:00

haiz... coming online just to relieve myself from the "marathon" of lectures these few weeks... especially the 5 hours straight lectures of TCM and proteomics tutorial on thurs... felt tired and worn out... felt worried and tense... exam is approaching and i'm not feeling optimistic at all... I know my friends are feeling the same thing...

Hmm... i'm going to be called up for army this week. Haix... don't know what to expect... although i've packed my stuff since last year, i don't like the idea of going back... I'm in the preparation of exams and have to face this stupid thing... haix... it's as if i'm waiting for death...

Felt that i've neglected my friends... opps... sorry... really busy trying to cramp everything into my brain... not to mention the upcoming lab report and "chinese essay" not done + the lovely biomarkers for cancer and the "excitement" of non-selective amine-reuptake inhibitors unrevised... what the vigabatrin... you barbiturates are absolutely ethoSUXimide ( T-type ) and phenytoinly duloxetine... i need some serotonin... feeling pessimistic and loss of motivation.. loss of appetite and loss of libido... *glup* errm... psychotic drugs are welcome too... bring me to coma ba...

Anyway pardon me for my lack of updates! Exams in 2 weeks time and nothing is done... guess i'm "dead" soon... back to study!!! *yawn*

Quick glimpse...

2008-03-23T11:56:00.003+08:00

Busy busy busy... actually i'm not really that busy. It's just that there is not enough time to do the things i wanna do. Study TCM alone can take up 80% of your time already... not enough time for my other core modules! Have to practise to listen, to write and to memorize in Chinese again... haix....

Exams in less than one month's time, and i'm seriously not prepared for it. How to study HRM? It is so logical and so general until i don't know how to prepare for it. Anyway i just hope things turn out fine this semester... Alamak... still got Functional Genomics and Proteomics untouched...

Went to church today and got to understand something once again, that resurrection is the foundation of Christianity. Without resurrection, Christianity is fake and we are believing in a person / God who cannot even overcome death. Haix... anyway i think i have no time to blog le... exams in less than 3 weeks... See how ba...

Back to study!

Theory X

2008-03-20T00:04:00.005+08:00

McGregor's Theory X: The Traditional View of Direction and Control

1. The average human being has an inherent dislike of work and will avoid it if he or she can.
2. Because of this human characteristic dislike of work, most people can be coerced, controlled, directed, threatened with punishment to get them to put forth adequate effort towards the achievement of organisational objectives.
3. The average human being prefers to be directed, wishes to avoid responsibility, has relatively little ambition, and wants security above all.

This theory reminds me of something: SAF. Indeed, this theory tells an absolute truth of this sickening organisation.

Anyway i'm so sorry for the vulgar words. Felt hurt at that time, and time did heal everything.. cos things are perfect once again! Haha... TCM lectures are gaining its stride and the workload seems to be heavier... but still managable! Luckily the Human Resource Project and the Pharmacology lab report is finally over... though i'm still left with the Functional Genomics and Proteomics Lab report.. sian... Chatted with Jian Zhong about relationship stuff and... hmm... had mixed feelings ba. Though relationship can turn out bad sometimes, i still wanna be optimistic about it... :P ( see this? I think he's self-entertaining himself.. just be happy! )

Haven't been in msn for a long long long time... haha! Ever since my computer got virus, i no longer have the urge to go msn. Though i feel left out from all my friends, but i spent the time sleeping, especially when i'm travelling at least 3 hours per day to school and back, changing LRT, MRT and bus within one trip... i can't imagine i'm such a hardy creature...

Oh ya.. happy birthday Kelvin! Can see your gf Xiang Ting loves you a lot leh... buy present and cake, and gather your friends to celebrate with you... the 4 leaves chocolate cake is marvellous! ( Especially the last layer only... LOL!! ) thanks Xiang xiang for the Mars Chocolate! Had my family day today! Haha... Had dinner at Fei Chui and the food was not bad la.. though my parents commented it could be better. Had shark fin, roasted duck, roasted chicken, sea cucumber + minced pork + brocolli, fried fish, fried rice, prawns with lots of garlic and a lovely cup of mango pudding. Haha! Enjoyed the company of all my family members!

Another happy news!!! I finally got into Dong-A University for exchange next semester!!! Applied for 3 semesters and finally got in from the second round of selection. Hmm... still having lots of obstacles of subject matching and planning before the actual acceptance of the Exchange offer... see how ba...

2008-03-13T14:23:00.002+08:00

I am fucked up

The Jatropha guy

2008-03-04T12:33:00.004+08:00

I cannot believe it.. the Professor who taught me Plant Biology in year 3 sem 1, Dr Hong Yan, was in the Straits Times today! WA... Temasek Life Sciences Laboratory's project on the jatropha plant is spearheaded by Dr Hong leh... impressive huh... but i don't really like his "Qi Qong' style in the picture... hmm... no choice ba... i think for a plant biologist, you have to learn "马步" because plants are generally shorter than us.

By the way, at 10.30am today i saw an accident happened on Sengkang East Way. 2 car collided and one of them landed in the middle of the road. A few cars tried to bypass the crushed car. As per normal, i waited for bus 161. When a bus 161 arrived, the bus driver turned left and avoided the car. Initially i thought he was going to turn back and picked up passengers like me, who are waiting for him, but in the end, he ignored my bus stop and proceed to the next. As we can see, this drive lacks professionalism. The most basic responsibility for a bus driver is to drive carefully and to reach all the bus stops, isn't it? Apparently this driver sucks in his lazy attitude.

However i would like to compliment the female driver ( bus 161 ) from bus SBS 2638 Z, who manage to bypass the crushed car and fetch the passengers at 10.45pm. What she display is true professionalism. I like her attitude.

Love

2008-03-02T12:28:00.005+08:00

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. ... And now these three remains: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
1Corinthians 13:4-8, 13

For you, the one I love (^.^)

Taming the Tongue

2008-03-02T11:53:00.003+08:00

If anyone is never at fault in what he says, he is a perfect man, able to keep his whole body in check... ... The tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. If corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of this life on fire, and it itself set on fire by hell.

All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles and creatures of the sea are being tamed and have been tamed by man, but no man can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.

With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be. Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring? My brothers, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.

Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show it by his good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom.

The above abstract comes from the bible. The bible is so funny sometimes... All the while, it was trying to talk about the power of a tongue, and how much destruction it can cause. The conclusion given at the end of it seems out of point isn't it? Yet it was trying to tell us this: Those who are wise in controlling their tongue are necessary the one who speak the most. They are the ones who speak when necessary and most importantly, show it through their action.

Indeed, a lot of times when we are ill, or when we are sad and heartbroken, everyone will say more or less the same kind of consolation words. They are appreciated of course, but many a times, a simple hug or even an offer of a small coffee is more precious than words. Wisdom comes with action, and their actions built up people.

Puppet Feeling

2008-02-27T04:05:00.003+08:00

Just some thoughts...

Have been feeling bad-tempered easily. Sorry if i hurt anyone... It's time to be in control of my own feeling. Been driving these days and get frustrated easily by motorist. Motorcycle occupying the middle of the lane as if their father owns the road, road hogs and speeders who are trying to kiss my car's ass.

Have been feeling like a puppet also. Not really... sometimes life may feel good when we're in control.. but i'm getting used not being in control. Perhaps to be led is good if we can't really lead? Or perhaps we should lead although we do not know how to lead, so as to learn how to lead? I'm in control, yet losing control... vague feeling sometimes...

No matter what, i'm trying to live everyday to the fullest and am happy the way things are now! I must cherish those i love...

Busy

2008-02-23T16:29:00.007+08:00

Sorry everyone! Know it has been long since i last blog... I'm just busy preparing for the pharmacology test and lazy to update. On the other hand, when i stop blogging, people know less about me. It's time to keep a low profile of myself because i just want a peaceful life. Don't know why these days my temper is uncontrollable... Hmm... anyway these are just a few snapshots of what happened. I cannot really explain elaborately as situations are complicated, but rest assured, Joseph is still a happy boy!

A nite at the Night Safari... animal show! By the way, this is the first time i've been to Night Safari.Some exhibits at night safari about eggs... haha.. the top left corner is the egg-size of an ostrich!Oh ya... i'm the lazy bum at lab work... I'm practically doing nothing! Lucky i have a group of great teammate who did everything for me! Ronald, Kelvin, Li Hui and Li Shi... hahaha.. thanks!
Sparkles in the dark windy night at East Coast Beach.. beautiful..
My dad's birthday cake! I choose this during Chinese New Year at breadtalk.. haha.. a little last minute!Last but not least, caught my dad sleeping during church service! WAHAHA!Actually a lot of things happened in school... Chinese New Year, Valentine day, test, group meeting and discussion and a lot of gossips, unhappiness and happy moments... I'm gald everything is still fine! Thanks Huiling for your fresh pink flower during valentine day! Thanks Anthony for your chocolate and Xiang Ting for your chupa chups mini and hershey chocolate! I appreciate all of them... Have been feeling tired for the past few days also... hmm... let me think... i tried to set up a blog for my dad's business! I don't know how to improve the website further, so do give some comments! Or if you're interested to make friend with my dad, u can add him in friendster.. haha.. the link is provided in the blog itself~
http://bedok85.blogspot.com/

Msn got virus and auto shut down whenever i'm in msn.. so have not been online for months already... haiz.. had an ugly haircut too.. Oh ya.. a little angry these days... INSTEP encourages us to apply for exchange, and i applied 3 times consecutively with my results improving everytime. This is my last and only chance to apply for it and you didn't even bother to give it to me, but you gave it to a stupid idiot in ADM and breakup a wonderful combi of SBS members. No problem. U have the last say. Now you send me a mail for GIP ( addressed to me cos i saw my name.. or is it just automated? ). You think i'll be so stupid to apply for it again? Or are u trying to play me? U sucks

Another sucky stuff. I know recall manning is approaching, why appoint me to call up the rest of the servicemen and authenticate their particulars? By the way, i will never do it. During the Functional Genomics and Proteomics lecture, a 3rd SG in-charged called me and ask for my particulars. Mind your own business k. I'm having an important lecture and you cannot hear from the background? Ask and ask like nobody's business. What if that few minutes of conversation make my exam lost 1 or 2 marks and make me a grade lower? Can you compensate me the losses? Government always give $100 to national servicemen, but i rather forfeit it and get back my 2.4 years.

Haix... feeling a little unhappy these days.. not because anything bad happen... perhaps just purely depressed for nothing... Or just wasting my life away... That's all... Hope i have the mood to update again.. haha.. Have a nice recess week! Holiday!!

Walnut

2008-01-27T18:41:00.000+08:00

A series or events happened over the past few weeks and i'm delighted things turn out fine! Hmm... let me try to account them starting from the latest event. Hall 12 offered me a place to stay finally! Don't know i should accept or not. I think i'm rather used to going to and back from school, have maid to serve me and get to sleep in train. Life is not that bad afterall since TCM lesson has not started. Dad told me to take up the place, and i can decide whether i wanna stay or not. In fact, i hope to stay in Hall 16, or at least try once before i leave NTU...

Oh ya! I receive this Walnut cake yesterday~!! Freshly baked by Bangawansolo! I've been craving to eat walnut ever since my BMS friends said that walnut are good nutrients for your brain. Haha! And someone is so kind enough to buy it for me!Ate the walnut cake and i think its fabulous. Joshua and Esther even "attack" it sia.. i thought i can have it all alone by myself. Humph... and seriously, this cake it so nice that i think i can finish everything myself.. :P thanks!
On wed, it was my family day! Everyone who belongs to this family is present of course! We went to one of the shop in chinatown named "Guo Fu" to have a steamboat treat! Veg, prawns, fish, sheep meat, chicken meat, pork, mushrooms, fried tapioca and a lot more things for us to indulge in! Taken after the waitress put on the soup we ordered. Available are tom yam, curry, chicken soup and soup with medicinal value. Not bad...

Look at the feast!
The scrumptious meal taken by me once again!
After the meal, we went home. But sadly, my sister lost her phone. Tried finding but to no avail. Anyway i get to go to sembawang beach and sit on the swing too! Had a nice stroll too before going home. * felt blessed * i always treasure the time spend with my family.

On tue, i went for my lab! Just taking a few pictures during the lab session:

Look at CCC taking a picture with the inverted structure of the brain. Eh... don't think it's his brain ba... it's just too big to be his... opps! Not implying anything... haha!This is our professor Tang Kai with his favourite toy! Make a guess... is this MALDI-TOF/TOF, ESI Q-TOF, ESI LTQ Orbitrap or ESI LTQ FT? And i cannot believe he actually look into my camara phone while i'm taking a picture of him teaching!Him teaching us to analyze the results from the screen. I think Jessica is trying to hide her face away from my camara.. good way to listen and hide at the same time!
This is the TV screen which amplify and magnify the metal needle close to the detector. Hmm... if i'm not wrong, this needle is used for the electronspray ionisation, which is so fine for the naked eye! ( i think so ba ) lol...
A closer look at what the TV screen is magnifying!
Hmm... out of lab, at jurong east i went to the newly opened popular and everything is nice and beautiful. Picked up a book on frogs and found some cute frogs!
See this frog? I like the thin lip and... it looks stupid to me.. haha...
Last but not least, a nice meal cooked by my maid! Though this meal has long digested and shitted out, i wanna highlight the fact that the food looks good before going into my mouth!
Although this western looks the same everytime, i just like the western cooked by my maid. It just seems appealing.. and mouth-watering...That's all! Hope everything will be fine this week... i hope...

Outside vs Inside

2008-01-23T00:36:00.000+08:00

Some things are not what it seems to be... Friends may be surrounding you, but felt lonely on the inside. Why? Perhaps its the element of care that is missing? Perhaps constant contact is not really that possible? 310 contacts in my handphone... i have 300 free sms... every month send an sms also exceed my limit... Everyday sms one person also take 10 months... don't know what am i talking about actually... purely feeling resentful at times...

Perhaps what is portrayed on the outside does not really mean the same for the inside. Sometimes there are more to some things, and it's not that the truth can't be told, but it cannot be told, and it must not be told? Anyway i think i'm lumping too many things together. Brain is confused. Simplistically speaking, things is not as easy as what u think it is. It's complicated.

Don't think too much. Just study first, talk later.

Good medicine

2008-01-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

A cheerful heart is a good medicine!

School work has been pilling up at exponential rate again... second week already and i still seems so slack!

Ya ya... sadistic.. that guy is trying to steal her heart. Poke into her breast, pull out a nice heart, which in turn sitmulates an enlargement of the girls eyes. LOL!! Can't believe i type "stimulate the enlargement of eye".. But notice the girl didn't die? And they start all over again.. enjoying themselves... Kinda cute. Yet i don't mean this when i said "A cheerful heart is a good medicine".. Practically eating the heart sia...

Sian... don't know if i can remember all the drugs name. The second lecture for Pharmacology already have about 50 drugs and my brain is rather dead now.. feeling sore with the throat too.. On top of that, someone is targeting my wallet.. LOL... notti...

Jan 10, 2008 Thursday ST Forum

2008-01-10T09:47:00.000+08:00

I'm writing this in response to the comment made by Linda Cheng in the ST Forum at page H11 in The Straits Times.

She is arguing about the priority seats on MRT trains, comparing Singapore with Taiwan. I'm not against you truthfully, because from the situation as stated by you, you need the seats. It has been kind of you to highlight that younger commuters gave up their seat to the older commuters in Taiwan and Tokyo. Excellent job huh. So in Singapore, does it matter if those people occupying the non-priority seats gave up their seats to you? You just sucks in your attitude. Were you ever thankful when people are good to you, and write to ST Forum, complimenting these kind of people?

You personally say that whenever you stand near a seat with the sign, "Give up the seat to someone who needs it more than you", those people in the priority seats ignored you. You tired many times ( don't know what are you trying to do ). Until you stand in the middle of the carriage, someone then offer you a seat. As a result you suggest to SMRT to remove the sign since the possibility of a someone giving up his seat rarely happens. On top of that, you blame it on the culture of Singapore.

In the first place, since u're 7 months pregnant and really need the seat, is it so hard to open your golden mouth to ASK for a seat? Such as "I'm sorry.. i'm pregnant. May i have this seat?". You want it, you ask for it since u are the most gracious and so deserve the seat. All you know is just wait and wait? Have you ever come across your selfish mind that people are tired as well? You as a pregnant lady jolly well give people some respect, because i don't think you deserve any. Afterall, we DO have commuters giving up seats to you, just that those commuters are not sitting at the sign. Anyway, who are you to suggest to SMRT to remove the sign? Who are you to pinpoint this "fault" to the SMRT? You are the least generous, suckiest pregnant woman i've ever come across.

Asked LP from EEE to comment on this, she said you should stay at home. Pregnant already still travel around like nobody's business. Let me give you a suggestion in return. If you want a seat? Buy a car.

Start Of A New Sem

2008-01-08T21:30:00.000+08:00

The new semester is here... Oh well.. Don't know i should feel happy or sad. Not staying hall anymore cos i'm not allocated any. On top of that, not much friends stayed in hall too... ever since i've shifted out of Hall 15 to Hall 1, quite lonely. Roomie alone is not enough... Anyway i should try to live without hall for once and see if it's really that bad. May my maid serve me. WHAHAHAHA!!

This holiday seems to go by very quickly and sadly speaking, i didn't do anything that marvellous and fantastic. I hope my lacking attitude will not affect the start of this new sem. I must study hard! ( hopefully )

Cute.. kinda relieve my pre-school blues... amazing how it did not get itself killed.

Oyster Upheaveal

2008-01-06T16:02:00.000+08:00

New Requirement of Pre-Export Norovirus Testing For Frozen Oysters Exported To Singapore

Due to an increase of food poisioning outbreaks associated with the consumption of frozen oyster because of norovirus contamination, AVA will impose pre-export testing for norovirus in every consignment of frozen oyster, whether in half-shell, whole-shell or meat exported to Singapore with effect from 1 June 2007. This will therefore require the competent relevant government authority of the exporting countries to vertify in the health certificate that the consignment of frozen oysters has been tested and found free of norovirus. This certification will be in addition to the existing certification requirements, which will be read as follow:

a) the oyster were harvested from approved waters and processed in an approved establishment/plant in a sanitary and hygienic manner;

b) the oysters have not been treated with chemical preservatives and additives injurious to health;

c) the oyster have been tested and found free of norovirus;

d) the product is fit for human consumption.

Please contact Mr Thomas Lee at tel 63257102 or me ( Mr Koh Cheng Liat ) at 63257879 if you need further clarifications.

Contact for fuck. I called so many times and no one picked up the phone.

Agri-Food & Veterinary Authory of Singapore ( AVA ) is becoming more of a pest nowadays. My dad's business is seriously affected by this delayed-and-over-reacted testing for norovirus these days. Why do i say "delayed"? As a science student, i've did a mini research on this matter. There is no recent food poisioning outbreak associated with the consumption of frozen oysters because of norovirus contamination. The outbreak occurred in 04 Nov 2003, 4 years ago, where half-shelled RAW oysters served in hotels, clubs and restaurents were suspected. The specific shipment import from Shandong, China was problematic and the remaining 21 carton was recalled. No further outbreak was report since then, and it took AVA 4 years before they started do anything.

Finally when AVA implemented a norovirus testing, ALL oysters in Singapore did not meet the requirement, including our supplier Pan Ocean Singapore Pte Ltd, which has rumoured a future increase in oyster price to gain a hefty profit from the retailers. Anyway, all the consignment was burned and destroyed. Called two other suppliers and they replied the same thing.

From the Journal of Infection (2005)51, 413-418 Oyster-associated outbreaks of Norovirus gastroenteritis in Singapore, electron microscope and real-time reverse transcription PCR on ABI PRISM 7700 Sequence Detector was used to examine the presence of Norovirus.

Picture taken from Journal of Infection (2005)51, 413-418 via NTU database.
This is the actual figure in the journal itself. Figure 4.
What can u see from this picture? Can you see the presence of norovirus particle round, granular with a diameter of ~35nm, a ragged edge and an morphous surface appearance? I don't know what is it that "dot" myself, but i can conclude that this EM has low sensitivity and has a rather low resolution. In the journal, they used real-time reverse transcription PCR on ABI PRISM 7700 Sequence Detector. So? How big is your sample size? Do you know you have limited stool samples being tested, which may result in statistical error? Did you know that norovirus can be inactivated at temperature higher than 60 degrees? Try touching the frying pan to see if its more than 60 degrees. It is fair to ban all oyster now when it is the hotels and restaurants that is serving the raw contaminated oysters 4 years ago? Did you consider the possibility of false-positive results? Although there is no routine test for norovirus ( or viral contamination ) in the service laboratory previously, isn't it too harsh to burn all the consignment now that u've started testing? Even if all the while norovirus was present, Singaporean for the past few years have been eating and they are fine. Now that a few weak westerners ate the raw oyster had diarrhoea, it is fair to the general public, where no previous outbreak associated with comsumption of raw oyster has been reported? Problematic. High carrier frequency for cystic fibrosis already still want to eat raw oyster and self-destruct.

Anyway this matter will not rest. Initially i thought the police force was useless enough, now AVA is giving more trouble. Now none of the oyster consignment from all the supplier passed your test. Everything is burned. Thanks man. SAF is fucked up too. Great. What's next? Impose fine again for those who jaywalk? Nothing better to do. What a peaceful city afterall. U're the best.