A Change
Have been playing these days... Jogging, window-shopping, mahjong, warbook ( an application in facebook ), watch movies and doing things that are rather "useless"... as a result? I feel useless as well.
Spent a lot of time in warbook trying to built up my army. Although i've just started this game not long ago, i get addicted easily. As a result, i deleted this application from my facebook. Perhaps i might delete the entire facebook if i'm spending too much time on it. I always delete. Whenever i want to forget someone, i will delete his/her hp number from my phone and make sure i never see it again. Been thinking i should be spending time thinking what i really want in the future, and give careful planning to achieve what i want. Leisure is necessary, but compulsive playing is definitely not going to bring me any good.
In life, no matter what we choose, we will always gain something and lose something... losing the opportunity cost... losing the alternative... I hope the choices i've made will not make me lose things that i treasured most in my life. haha... sounds general? Just thinking of something... School is starting next week and i'll be busy studying again. People might feel sad, but i want this to happen because i want to graduate and proceed on with my life. Have been studying for about 16 years already and the naive me have not really decipher the treacherous and deceitful society. No work = No money.
Temptations are hard to resist. Commitments are hard to keep. Once i've committed myself to serve the church, but i got disheartened. When i do not feel like going to church these days, its not only the superficial "Joseph-did-not-come" only, but it shows how much i value and keep this commitment i've made years ago. Once i've commit myself to learn piano. No doubt i learned the basics, but the continuous learning and constant practice is really a challenge. I no longer feel the passion for it.. excuse such as hard to master and no time is inevitable. Once i told myself that i will not speak a word of vulgarities because it is hurtful, but i still did 10 years later. To some people, vulgar words is no big deal! But to me, it is another kind of "commitment"... or should i say, a promise to be kept? A promise made by myself. Haha... moral values corroding... admire those people who have integrity and the strength to persevere in what they believe in. I think i need lots of encouragement to keep the commitments to come. People might think i'm deemed to fail considering the failed past commitments, but i love to give surprises and hate those who look down on me.
No matter how pessimistic i feel, i still believe life is good. In retrospect, a change is definitely a must to better myself. Just like what the Democrates said: Change. Change for the better!
Spent a lot of time in warbook trying to built up my army. Although i've just started this game not long ago, i get addicted easily. As a result, i deleted this application from my facebook. Perhaps i might delete the entire facebook if i'm spending too much time on it. I always delete. Whenever i want to forget someone, i will delete his/her hp number from my phone and make sure i never see it again. Been thinking i should be spending time thinking what i really want in the future, and give careful planning to achieve what i want. Leisure is necessary, but compulsive playing is definitely not going to bring me any good.
In life, no matter what we choose, we will always gain something and lose something... losing the opportunity cost... losing the alternative... I hope the choices i've made will not make me lose things that i treasured most in my life. haha... sounds general? Just thinking of something... School is starting next week and i'll be busy studying again. People might feel sad, but i want this to happen because i want to graduate and proceed on with my life. Have been studying for about 16 years already and the naive me have not really decipher the treacherous and deceitful society. No work = No money.
Temptations are hard to resist. Commitments are hard to keep. Once i've committed myself to serve the church, but i got disheartened. When i do not feel like going to church these days, its not only the superficial "Joseph-did-not-come" only, but it shows how much i value and keep this commitment i've made years ago. Once i've commit myself to learn piano. No doubt i learned the basics, but the continuous learning and constant practice is really a challenge. I no longer feel the passion for it.. excuse such as hard to master and no time is inevitable. Once i told myself that i will not speak a word of vulgarities because it is hurtful, but i still did 10 years later. To some people, vulgar words is no big deal! But to me, it is another kind of "commitment"... or should i say, a promise to be kept? A promise made by myself. Haha... moral values corroding... admire those people who have integrity and the strength to persevere in what they believe in. I think i need lots of encouragement to keep the commitments to come. People might think i'm deemed to fail considering the failed past commitments, but i love to give surprises and hate those who look down on me.
No matter how pessimistic i feel, i still believe life is good. In retrospect, a change is definitely a must to better myself. Just like what the Democrates said: Change. Change for the better!
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