Random thoughts...

hmm... feels good after a run! haha.. tried to run 4km within 25 minutes.. whoa.. seriously... i pant like i never pant before... wanna get a pass for my ippt, but at the expense of my exam 2 days later??? *alamak* Actually i have nothing to blog about.. but i guess i should be thankful! In fact, there is nothing interesting in my life, and there are nothing in my mind now, but i guess i can at least type something for my dearest blog?

Haven't been meeting up my friends for the past one month.. Just busy going for my korean lesson, surfing net, running, eating and sleeping... opps! Forget to touch my piano for months... this reminds me of someone in the tv who said " to him, music is his life ".. apparently music is not really my life.

I'm just thinking i should be doing something in my life.. but what can i do? It has been long since i last worked for my own pocket money.. guess i'm not really that independent.. but 24 years old already still not independent? Haix.. i'm still thinking of buying a camara and a skype phone in the upcoming IT fair for my korea trip + a camaraless phone for my reservist .. extravagent i think. Talking about reservist makes me mad again.. I'm having holiday May, June, July.. this stupid reservist falls in June, which is in between. Seriously, other than taking intersem, what can i do? I wanna work, but it seems some "stupid event" is dashing all my plans..

haha.. thankful that i'm still healthy at this moment.. but.. i think there are some acute pain in my heart not long ago.. after i eat the butter prawns.. :P hmm.. i thought there are no pain fibres in the heart? was thinking perhaps my coronary arteries was blocked for a moment... artherosclerosis ba.. or spasms? yaya.. all the increase upload shit, decrease blood flow to my heart tissues come to my mind.. i can imagine that image in my mind.. but i'm still thankful that i'm fine now.. haha..

Seriously, i don't know why people wanna go back and work for free in the lab as "attachment". This attachment is unnecessary and people are willing to do it for free. Is this the culture that NTU SBS is going to have? I know it's competitive there, people wanna socialize and know the professor and lab tech first.. wanna get hands on experience before the actual fyp. Is it necessary? U mean if we don't do all these ( for free btw ), we will do badly in fyp? Or people will just leave us to die there? ( don't think so ba ) This is the kind of thing that makes the system shity.. but apparently, people do like the feeling of having an "advantage" over fellow students although they are not paid.. perception problem.. for me, i think it's a waste of time.. no money talk about passion ar? Let's see how long will they carry on without being paid.. 3 months? 6 months? Sorry ar.. this is a realistic society.. the bottom line is: get paid at least. From the considerable amount in the payslip of the professor ( grants also can ), is it so tough for them to siphon out $300 for the students working for them? Even biopolis paid their intern people around $600 per month. You all can bloody buy a machines that cost millions and have no money for students working on those machines. Perhaps this is also the reason why science phd graduates are paid peanuts in well-known organizations ( i shall not name ) compared to business students. To me, passion worth zero if u have no money. Why not let's reciprocate the situation: how many professors are willing to work for free? think..

Wanna talk about girlfriend.. the feeling of dating is really nice.. especially in the beginning where people normally say it's the "honeymoon period".. everything about her is perfect... as time flies, as u get to know that person more and more, things are more "routine" already. Actually i kinda like "routine" stuff.. makes me feel secure and happy when everything goes well. Of course there are a lot of times where couples argued.. this is not surprising at all.. different people tackle the problem differently, but i would first keep quiet to avoid further anger. It does not mean i'm weak or useless cos it's not so easy to exercise this kind of self-control.. but no matter what, i will tell her that truthfully how i feel in the end and hope she'll understand.. I wouldn't say i'm expert in love, but i guess love is not just the wonderfully sweet part, but a mixed of sweet and bitter to make it complete. Most importantly, this love must be sacrificial in nature.. ( hmm.. sounds grand leh.. ) hard la.. everyday is a learning process..

Let me end off this entry with this:

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. ... And now these three remains: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. 1Corinthians 13:4-8, 13

I'm surprised i'm so long-winded..