Loneliness
Felt lonely today. At home the whole day. Faced the 4 walls. Faced my notes. Faced the TV. Faced my quiet handphone. Slept. Jogged. Ate. Listen to music. Still felt lonely. Have been like this when there is no sch.
Loneliness is not the same as being alone. What i want now, i don't know. But i know i can't get what i want. Perhaps this is the problem. No matter how hard i tried, i will never get some things. Helpless, just like when i'm stuck in the lift. Positive people will try again and again. Godly people will leave it to God and hope. As for me, perhaps i won't try le. When i don't care about things, nothing matters anymore. I won't yearn for things. Nothing is important anymore. Perhaps i won't want that thing anymore. Perhaps i don't even need it.
People always say when u work hard, you will get what u want. Just like what the below is trying to say:
Determination
If you can't get through the mountain, try going around it.
If you can't go around it, try going over it.
If you can't go over it, ask yourself if getting over to the other side is all that important.
If it is, set your heart out to dig a tunnel through it.
Maybe i should start believing that when u work hard, you may not get what u want.
Studies. Relationship. Job. Health. Not happy in all these areas.
Let's just take an issue for example: health. The problem? I'm thin. YAYA. Have been hearing it every now and then. Do you really think i want to be thin? Do u think its within my control? Do u have any fucking idea why my body work this way? None of u know, cos i don't even know it myself. I'm sure even a sec 1 kid look stronger than me. Eat la! Why never eat a lot?? You think i want my body to look so pathetically thin is it? Every night my parents bought me lots of supper. I always do their bid and eat. I can only blame it on myself. Weak. Perhaps the Fatty Acid Synthase is just malfunctioning in me.
People never look at the positive side of being thin for a guy. Pull up is never a problem for me. Agility is also my forte. But who cares. When people registered in their mind that u're thin, they won't even bat their eyelid on u. Perhaps u're just too thin to even be of their noticed.
In fact i don't feel like blogging this entry. I did nothing, and always thinking all these useless stuff. Thinking won't even change anything. Perhaps i won't think le.
Loneliness is not the same as being alone. What i want now, i don't know. But i know i can't get what i want. Perhaps this is the problem. No matter how hard i tried, i will never get some things. Helpless, just like when i'm stuck in the lift. Positive people will try again and again. Godly people will leave it to God and hope. As for me, perhaps i won't try le. When i don't care about things, nothing matters anymore. I won't yearn for things. Nothing is important anymore. Perhaps i won't want that thing anymore. Perhaps i don't even need it.
People always say when u work hard, you will get what u want. Just like what the below is trying to say:
Determination
If you can't get through the mountain, try going around it.
If you can't go around it, try going over it.
If you can't go over it, ask yourself if getting over to the other side is all that important.
If it is, set your heart out to dig a tunnel through it.
Maybe i should start believing that when u work hard, you may not get what u want.
Studies. Relationship. Job. Health. Not happy in all these areas.
Let's just take an issue for example: health. The problem? I'm thin. YAYA. Have been hearing it every now and then. Do you really think i want to be thin? Do u think its within my control? Do u have any fucking idea why my body work this way? None of u know, cos i don't even know it myself. I'm sure even a sec 1 kid look stronger than me. Eat la! Why never eat a lot?? You think i want my body to look so pathetically thin is it? Every night my parents bought me lots of supper. I always do their bid and eat. I can only blame it on myself. Weak. Perhaps the Fatty Acid Synthase is just malfunctioning in me.
People never look at the positive side of being thin for a guy. Pull up is never a problem for me. Agility is also my forte. But who cares. When people registered in their mind that u're thin, they won't even bat their eyelid on u. Perhaps u're just too thin to even be of their noticed.
In fact i don't feel like blogging this entry. I did nothing, and always thinking all these useless stuff. Thinking won't even change anything. Perhaps i won't think le.
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