A small entry

Today is sunday. Went to church with an empty mind, hopefully to learn something new. Though i did not get what i wanted, i pondered about my life.

Every sunday whenever my dad makes an effort to go church with us, i will have slightly more time to talk to him. In fact i cherish my parents more then my friends, but that does not mean i don't cherish my friends. Thinking about what has happened, i never regret saying that.

Used to lead a Godly life during JC days. Had quiet time everyday and participate in church actively. Sat and sun confirm in church. When i entered army, the first 3 months basic military training is the toughest for me. There is a sudden change in lifestyle. You are a slave to this necessary evil, and i hate it to the core. Then i realised that only my parents were there for me. During POP, i remembered vividly both my parents come down from the stand, looking for me. I will never forget that moment of my life. My impression of church changed from then onward. To me, they are just a sunday kind of thing already. Don't blame me for thinking this way, cos when i needed u the most, u are just distant from me, despite spending more than 10 years in it...

So what if i used to go church every sunday? So what if i helped out the choir? So what if i go for fellowship? In the end, during the walk of life, you walk alone. Ok... i shall say it nicely, i walk with God only. Of course the friends there are nice. Honest with their feelings, helpful also, just a little gossipy and only stick to their own click. As usual. But that is that, and it stops there. Nothing wrong with it, its just like that. Still clinging on to church weakly with some church commitments, if not i may not even be going to church consistently every sunday.

Regarding my previous entry, i have no hard feelings. I'm just merely stating a fact. Seriously friendships are not as important as relationships. I recognized this fact already.

Eventually you'll realized, that your friends will not be there for you forever. Not even your best friend. Nothing in this world is fixed. It just keeps changing. Even we ourselves change. For the better or worse is up to us. Change is inevitable. Chatted with someone in church who is married. She too have good friends, and now don't even have time to meet up. Busy with family.

When you're ill, your friends will not be the ones to take care of you always. It's your spouse.
When you're tired, your friends will not be there to help you immediately. It's your spouse.
When your're sad, your friends will not be the ones to wipe your tears always. It's your spouse.
When you needed help, your friends will not help u forever. It's your spouse.
Relationship is more lasting then friendship.
All your friends can do, is to give u a pat on the back, encourage u to be strong and continue to walk on in life. They will not be the ones involved in your life 24 hours.

Therefore i'll understand if relationship weighs more then friendship. Its normal. There will always be exceptions, but its the norm for now. Cheers... Hope tomorrow will be a better day... always...

Flowers bloom, flowers die... but at least it bloomed now. Enjoy its beauty and complain not why it can't be more beautiful. Share the joy and give thanks always...

Encouraging comments from reader:

honeystar: IF God is in the centre of friendships, i can tell u 100% they do last. N serve with a purpose. When ur vertical relationship w God is right, naturally, ur horizontal relationship w pple will b too!=)

Joseph: not everyone believes in God.. then how? know u're talking in a christian pt of view... understood what u say.. but sometimes reality is far from theory...

honeystar: Then u show them what it is like to be a good and long lasting friend. Dont make Christianity sound so dead. Live it out and u will know what I mean. But ur mindset has to change wor..=D

Will: BMT was tough for me too. Thanks for helping me get through those days!

francis: one of the most sincere and honest blogs ard.. keep ur entry going ya .. Cheers and stay happy always! =)