Finally over

Finally. Manage to come online and have some time to blog. Thanksgiving first! Haha.. i passed my korean languange!!! WAHAHAHA!! The result is surprising cos i wrote rubbish. Next, my status for relief teaching was approved ( though i didn't intend to teach ).. lol... and i passed my ippt.. :)

SAF is seriously an inefficient organisation. In fact i don't know why i'm there in the first place. Check in fast, check out bloody slow. Wait and wait for fuck? Don't you all know that the battalion is booking out together? Simple things also cock up. Fucking inefficient. No washing machine to wash our clothes also. U seriously think we are NSF ar? If you don't like to bath it's your business. We are done with our liabilities and who do you think you are? Where do we stay? The 6th level. Everyday have to climb at least 24 stories. Shit you. Allow us to book out for only 3 hours. Drag and drag, how to go home? Fucker never think in our shoes. Back gate timing also not given to us, have walk bloody long to the front gate and sweat. I find myself like a bloody slave. Or should i say cheap labour. Call me back for training while i'm a student and pay me peanuts. Smart ass you fucker. Call me back to slack 70% of my time. Since i'm at the lowest rung in the army, anyone higher rank than me ask me do what i must do. Maid ar? So many fucked up lazy sergeants. Fuck all regulars and everyone in it.

Reservist is indeed a stupid event. It is like entertaining ourselves. Ask us go back camp, make ourselves busy, ask us clear up the mess we made and then fuck home ourselves. Food are fucked up as well. Everything about this organisation just sucks to the core. Last but not the least, fuck you SAF.

Love?

hmm... have been thinking lately.. how do you know a person really loves u? or what should you do to show that u really love that person?

Honesty? Gifts? Time? Words of encouragement? Intimacy? or sacrificial love? ( does sacrificial love means be his/her "slave" no matter the other person loves u or not? ) I don't think so ba.. I have a feeling that i'm not loving the right way..

Different people reacts differently... perception of love is very different also... this will be a very short entry before i go for reservist.. hope i will get some comments after i come back 2 weeks later?

Feeling guilty

Have been spending a lot these days. i know i did. Should start to save..

Have been joking too much these days too..

Have you ever felt lonely even when there are people around u? Not that i am, but i'm just thinking.. Been requesting too much from people when me myself is not any better.. yup.. requesting too much le.. perhaps when i don't bother, things turns out better. When i bother too much, i'm just irritating.. this situation is normal for me..

Perhaps i'm sick...아프다 again..

Random thoughts...

hmm... feels good after a run! haha.. tried to run 4km within 25 minutes.. whoa.. seriously... i pant like i never pant before... wanna get a pass for my ippt, but at the expense of my exam 2 days later??? *alamak* Actually i have nothing to blog about.. but i guess i should be thankful! In fact, there is nothing interesting in my life, and there are nothing in my mind now, but i guess i can at least type something for my dearest blog?

Haven't been meeting up my friends for the past one month.. Just busy going for my korean lesson, surfing net, running, eating and sleeping... opps! Forget to touch my piano for months... this reminds me of someone in the tv who said " to him, music is his life ".. apparently music is not really my life.

I'm just thinking i should be doing something in my life.. but what can i do? It has been long since i last worked for my own pocket money.. guess i'm not really that independent.. but 24 years old already still not independent? Haix.. i'm still thinking of buying a camara and a skype phone in the upcoming IT fair for my korea trip + a camaraless phone for my reservist .. extravagent i think. Talking about reservist makes me mad again.. I'm having holiday May, June, July.. this stupid reservist falls in June, which is in between. Seriously, other than taking intersem, what can i do? I wanna work, but it seems some "stupid event" is dashing all my plans..

haha.. thankful that i'm still healthy at this moment.. but.. i think there are some acute pain in my heart not long ago.. after i eat the butter prawns.. :P hmm.. i thought there are no pain fibres in the heart? was thinking perhaps my coronary arteries was blocked for a moment... artherosclerosis ba.. or spasms? yaya.. all the increase upload shit, decrease blood flow to my heart tissues come to my mind.. i can imagine that image in my mind.. but i'm still thankful that i'm fine now.. haha..

Seriously, i don't know why people wanna go back and work for free in the lab as "attachment". This attachment is unnecessary and people are willing to do it for free. Is this the culture that NTU SBS is going to have? I know it's competitive there, people wanna socialize and know the professor and lab tech first.. wanna get hands on experience before the actual fyp. Is it necessary? U mean if we don't do all these ( for free btw ), we will do badly in fyp? Or people will just leave us to die there? ( don't think so ba ) This is the kind of thing that makes the system shity.. but apparently, people do like the feeling of having an "advantage" over fellow students although they are not paid.. perception problem.. for me, i think it's a waste of time.. no money talk about passion ar? Let's see how long will they carry on without being paid.. 3 months? 6 months? Sorry ar.. this is a realistic society.. the bottom line is: get paid at least. From the considerable amount in the payslip of the professor ( grants also can ), is it so tough for them to siphon out $300 for the students working for them? Even biopolis paid their intern people around $600 per month. You all can bloody buy a machines that cost millions and have no money for students working on those machines. Perhaps this is also the reason why science phd graduates are paid peanuts in well-known organizations ( i shall not name ) compared to business students. To me, passion worth zero if u have no money. Why not let's reciprocate the situation: how many professors are willing to work for free? think..

Wanna talk about girlfriend.. the feeling of dating is really nice.. especially in the beginning where people normally say it's the "honeymoon period".. everything about her is perfect... as time flies, as u get to know that person more and more, things are more "routine" already. Actually i kinda like "routine" stuff.. makes me feel secure and happy when everything goes well. Of course there are a lot of times where couples argued.. this is not surprising at all.. different people tackle the problem differently, but i would first keep quiet to avoid further anger. It does not mean i'm weak or useless cos it's not so easy to exercise this kind of self-control.. but no matter what, i will tell her that truthfully how i feel in the end and hope she'll understand.. I wouldn't say i'm expert in love, but i guess love is not just the wonderfully sweet part, but a mixed of sweet and bitter to make it complete. Most importantly, this love must be sacrificial in nature.. ( hmm.. sounds grand leh.. ) hard la.. everyday is a learning process..

Let me end off this entry with this:

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. ... And now these three remains: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. 1Corinthians 13:4-8, 13

I'm surprised i'm so long-winded..

Friend's Test

Lol... out of boredom, i set up a "Friend's Test" in my blog... well.. can try when u're free? :P well I must agree that it's a little stupid..

Haha.. ok la.. Hui Jun mei mei is the cutest k! Don't be so playful ar.. must study hard too!

Sian.. notti Eunice scratch me until i have 5 scratch marks + one mark with blood. This is incorrigible!! Next time must cut off all her nails.. play also don't know how to play... now i'm suffering in pain.. *ouch*

Exam results out!

Yesterday had a nice family day! Hmm... went out in the afternoon with my parents for lunch and held a farewell dinner for one of their fellow colleague ( *sian*.. cost us $700 ).. After that we had mahjong session again! It's our family's all times favourite.. but i lost $20++ dollars to my brother Joshua.. *double sian*

yup... and exam results are out yesterday! Didn't do well in some subjects.. but surprisingly, this is one of the best results i've obtained in ntu so far.. :P for those who didn't do well, i hope u will not feel discourage... life is not dependable on a cert only.. work hard again!

Oil

After reading the news for the past few days about Malaysia's strategy to cut fuel subsidies, i can see your attitude against Singaporeans ( who knows may include the Thai ). From Singapore you draw a radius of 50km and say no oil should be sold to foreign cars. This is really a bloody beat around the bush. What foreign cars are you referring to when u're drawing the 50km radius from Singapore itself?

You seriously think u don't need foreigners to support your economy is it? After implementing the LAW ( the strategy has become a law.. can enforce already.. ), your own people that depends mainly on the thai cars protested. There are so many ways to tackle a problem and is this the best strategy you can think of? Cannot sell oil? You yourself is a net exporter of oil leh.. what joke is this. If u want to sell subsidize oil to your own people only, there are other ways. I know you pay a hefty fuel subsidy of US$14 billion based on the oil price of US$120 per barrel.. so? Because of this, you stop selling your precious oil to OTHER people who needs it near the borders, causing cars to stall. When Singapore implemented the 3/4 tank full before going into malaysia, you critisize as if we block your fortune road. Seriously, review your own attitude and don't give me that kind of smart-alec and big-brother-always-right kind of thinking. As a result of your action, you impacted your own tourism, economy and trust of your own people at the expense oil. I feel that u need more wisdom to make more wise choices.

No hard feeling on my malaysian friends.

Old people these days

This is an add-on from the previous post:

Seriously.. 最近的老人狗眼看人低..

U bloody think you old i scared u ar. Was standing on the right side of the escalator ( because i believe i can stabilize myself better using my right hand than my left hand ) in sengkang mrt today before going for my korean lesson. An old man diao me and walk pass me. I know i'm standing at the non-SMRT-left-side. So what. Your attitude makes me sick. After he reached the MRT platform, he stared at me all the way until i reached the platform. Of course i stared back at him.. you know what? That bloody old man want to fight with me and started to walk towards me.

In the end, i siam him and walk opposite direction. Cannot even catch up with me still want to fight with me. 最近的老人狗眼看人低.. If you want people to respect you, you better respect people first. I'm not going to curse you or what ( because it's not in my tradition to do so ), but i believe people will meet their own kind. So do i. I'm an angel..








in disguise..

Tired day

Seriously.. after seeing so many things around me, SAF still sucks to the core. Not just the organisation, but a lot of people in it. In fact I don’t see highly of the people in it. People who fucking don't deserve a job and some may even be a society-useless-bug can be found in it ( not talking about NSF of course ). As a result of "secrecy of information" and regimental system, inside is fucked up. This includes fucked up boyfriends in it too. I can tell u that i heard of some guys molested by hunky gay sergeants, but unable to voice out anything. “Secrecy of information” is really regimental indeed. Loyalty to country yes. Loyalty to SAF? *shurg*.. two words just float strongly in my mind.. it's none other than "下贱".. well i have no objection if u love this organisation.. but if u love it, u should seriously join it...

Was chatting with Ariyo today and wanted to voice out something in my blog.. Believe it or not, woman can get rich just by marrying and divorcing.. Especially in Singapore, marriage is really not advantages to Singaporean guys when a marriage goes down the drain. I seriously don't know why the presence of alimony when people are shouting out loud “equality!!” in this society ( + the rising of women rights ) and women are getting more independent.

Another thing is that the extension of MRT + circle line etc. What is the use when thousands of people are taking a 179 bus to NTU? Why not just spend a little money and build an extension to NTU or NUS to greatly aid the crowd control in Boon Lay and Clementi.. Instead only the Tuas people got the comfort..

No hard feeling on anyone.. Not happy then comment on your own blog and leave mine alone.. Getting back results on thurs and hope i will maintain my grades...